The Adventurous Girls

Our Summer

2011-08-03T10:41:00.004-04:00

In June we enjoyed some great country living! In the cabin! It was so much fun 4-wheeling, huge breakfast's every morning, camp fires, smores till we were sick lol, stories, and laughter. This was one fun and relaxing week. It is nice to go up to the cabin for get aways it is close to our home so we have gone up there a few times this summer and we will be going up the rest of the year. I love it there is the fall & winter too.

The girls each enjoyed going to their church camps. Their lives were changed being drawn closer to God. That is my desire as their mom to teach the the ways of the Lord, so that they will grow up to serve him in all His ways.

We also go to the river lot and swim when we can. That is a nice get away also for everyone. It is fun and I sometimes just enjoy watching the swim and other times I have swam myself

We have also had some fun times going to the pool in our area. Sometimes just us others time with friends. Of course the girls love to bring friends along so they can swim with them

Jasmine & I went on the longest Zipline in the USA!!
http://www.hockinghillscanopytours.com/home.html
It was breath taking fun!! We were able to go down side by side and had a great time together!! Ms Daizi was at church camp while we tow went. Ms jasmine had been wanting to go for sometime. God opened the doors for us and supplied the money for us to go. I was so excited to have this special day with her and the memory of that day will be with me forever!!

We went on vacation with my parents. We went to The Great Smokey Mountains!!! We girls love it there. It was fun exciting and relaxing at the same time. No schedule but the day we went to Dolly Wood of course. It was nice to relax, sleep in well the girls did, swim, hang with my parents and shop!!

August is here Cheer leading as started for Ms Daizi last month. Track starts for Ms Jasmine next week and we are looking forward to the rest of our Summer before school starts back up.

Happy Birthday My Ms Daizi!!!!!

2011-07-27T08:14:00.003-04:00

You are my Ms Daizi Happy Birthday!!! My sweet Daughter I love you Forever!!!

Today 11 years ago I gave birth to you! You came the day you were due right on time. I remember this day like it was yesterday! I loved you with all of my heart while you were growing in my stomach yet when they placed you in my arms my love grew even stronger. There isn't a day that goes by that my love for you doesn't grow stronger my Ms Daizi!! You are a true blessing to our family. You are growing up in your Tween years now finding your way though life. I am enjoying every stage of life with you!! I love you and always will. I am blessed to be your momma!!!

Happy Fourth of July!!!!!

2011-07-04T17:50:00.002-04:00

The American flag does not fly because the wind moves past it. The American flag flies from the last breath of each military member who has died protecting it. American soldiers don't fight because they hate what's in front of them...they fight because they love what's behind them.

PS....I am back. I have missed blogging and glad to be back!!!!

Waiting All My Life...by rascal flatts

2010-11-10T09:32:00.001-05:00

Thank you Joshua for coming into my life three years ago!! Thank You God for sending him my way! These past three years we were building a friendship that is now a relationship that is going to last a life time!! I never knew love like this!! I never knew or thought that it would happen to me!! Thank you for being you my Man Joshua!!! I am glad you texted me after we went riding & lol..it was ur first text you sent to me first..lol..I am blessed & so are my daughters!! Here all this time while I was waiting God was working :-) on creating a wonderful relationship out of our friendship!! It has been worth the wait. I will love you forever!!!

Simply the Best

2010-11-09T06:45:00.003-05:00

* laughter in the house
* my daughters when they sit on my lap
* knowing my Ms Jasmine had the best Birthday weekend ever!!!
* a wonderful boyfriend
* cousins that are like sisters
* my BFF that is like my sista too
* being blessed with amazing friends
* dystonia is not something that is the best, but I love the good days they are the BEST
* knowing that Josh is here to stay (my man)
* having just what we need
* knowing God is bigger then any of my problems
* the Blessings that God pours out on US!!!

Weekend FUN :-)

2010-11-08T06:25:00.002-05:00

Friday : My Jasmine had a Birthday party sleepover. They had a great time :-)! it was wonderful hearing the laughter, running around, talking, playing the game systems, computer time, playing flashlight tag, jumping on the trampoline, a walk in the woods, playing in the woods, & so much more. It was awesome because there was a house full of girls & they all had a great time together. My Daizi had a friend over also & they played all of the above also. My daughters have some amazing friends. There are three of them that call me mom :-)

Saturday : The girl's slept in well a few of them. I made a huge breakfast for them & it was funny to watch how they all were a little different in the morning..lol..a little quiet :-) They hung out and started leaving between 11:00 - 3:00. My friend Susan came over in the afternoon to hang out with me to have some girl time. it was nice to talk about life.

Everyone left & then YAY!! my cousin & her girls came over to spend the night & hang out with us on Sunday!!! I say Beth should just be my sister I know it would confuse everyone if I called her that, but we say we are sisters to each other. We are so excited that we found each other on FB & also meet up again at the McCoy family reunion. We all 7 girl's just clicked!!! I love them all & thank God for family yet they are like Friends also!! We had fun talking to 4L00 in the morning :-) Well Beth & I :-)

Sunday: I woke up did the breakfast & then Ashely & I headed out to decorate for Jasmine's surprise party. We had a great time hanging out, picking up a few items & then decorating. We came home Beth fixed lunch & took care of the rest of the girls while we were gone. It was a perfect surprise party. My Jasmine thought it was just family so she knew people would be there! She loved it. I say thank you to all the wonderful family & friends that came out to make My Jasmine's Birthday so special!!! I am really blessed with great friends & family! My Jasmine is also!!!!

Happy Birthday my sweet daughter

2010-11-06T09:09:00.000-04:00

Here you are now all grown up!! Taller then me even..hahaha..You are a sweet amazing beautiful inside & out my daughter that I am proud of all the time! I know that you are now in your teen years & life doesn't always make sense. Trust me I remember those years I am glad we have a relationship like we do. We talk about everything & anything yet I am still mom & your still my daughter. I thank God for your life & pray for your protection daily. You are a true blessing to me & everyone that knows you!! Happy Birthday my sweet daughter. I love you forever!!

Thirteen years ago you were placed in my arms this very day!! I was forever blessed & over joyed!!! I had been waiting for you all my life!!! You were & are a special gift from God to me!! I had felt this kind of love with your sister Claudia & again with you. I never knew my heart could hold so much love!! You brought a smile to my face that morning & you still do!!

Something Beautiful

2010-10-31T23:56:00.002-04:00

What a beautiful thing to watch your daughter to be baptised!!! I knew she had been talking about for over a month. It wasn't something my parents ever pushed on us. It was a choice they wanted us to make on our own & to understand why we did it. It was the same way I felt about my daughters. We talked about the different steps Christian's took & yet I felt that it was a choice that they needed to make on their own. I was over joyed when I knew that she had made the choice. Her Pastor Ashley (our children's pastor) had talked about with ht e children. My Daizi had came home & told me she totally understood it now and was ready. Our church tonight was filled with singing & the baptism service. I cried tears of joy while I watched my daughter claim her faith in God and be baptised. My parents her sister & our friends were there to support her. It was beautiful there is no other words that can explain it. Knowing her child loves God so much at this age is what every mother wants. I didn't take the step to be baptised till I was 17. I thank the good Lord above for parents that minded God and raised us in a christian home, grandparents that raised my parents in christian homes and all three of us girls are raising our children in christian homes. My prayer is that my daughter stay true to God and one day in the far future raise their family in a christian home.

Monday Memories

2010-10-25T18:41:00.003-04:00

I met Josh back when I was the manager at Char House. I was 21 and he was 20. I was married & he was with his girl. I found him on myspace back in 2007. We have talked on the phone, messaged, texted, and chatted online now for three years. I knew right away he was a great guy & I always enjoyed our talks. He always made me laugh & we just got along so great. We finally meet up in person and right away I had feelings for him. I of course was scared, since I am a mom with children. I know when I go into a relationship it isn't just me, but my daughters also! He knows everything about me & yet still likes me. He is that kind of guy you dream of & read about in books. He is the same all the time. That is very important to me. Our children hit it right off & they all thought it would be great if we dated. I tell you this is the real thing. He started out as my friend, so of course there is no fear of just talking not having to impress anyone & then the feelings came along after we meet up. It may seem fast to some people but yet we have been talking for three years & I can't see my life without him. I am excited, because he is all I have ever wanted. I am going hunting this year. I practiced this weekend!! I did it, hit the bottles so Josh said for sure I can hit a deer. I am looking forward to making memories with this wonderful man!! I am forever blessed to have Josh in my life!! My daughters adore him & our children all get along great!! I adore his children & it is great how we work together like a team. This is once in a lifetime kind of relationship! We both said we never wanted to date anyone again, but I say you can stop the real thing!!

Weekend Get Away

2010-10-24T23:25:00.002-04:00

Friday: Ms Jasmine's first school dance. Make over, hair rolled, beautiful dress, pictures, & a great time at the DANCE!!! Truck loaded up to go to the cabin for the weekend!!!

Saturday: Beautiful day, huge breakfast, relaxed, four wheeling, target shooting for hunting season, grilled pizza, more four wheeling, walking in the woods, more relaxing, kids playing in the woods, hue campfire for dinner & into the night & bedtime. A very relaxing Day!!!

Sunday: Beautiful morning, everything so quiet watching God's creation, kids playing, huge breakfast, four wheeling alot :), kids playing in the woods more, relaxing on the swing, grilled hamburgers & hot dogs, ok a little more four wheeling, clean up cabin & the headed home!!

What a great family weekend get away!! Just what we needed to get away from the business of life, relax & enjoy the simple things in life!! What a beautiful world God created & to look at this world through the eyes of children just makes life seem so simple!!!

Thinking Thursday

2010-10-21T12:23:00.003-04:00

* life is moving so fast

* my daughters are not little girls anymore & wow I miss that

* Jasmine's first dance tomorrow & I cry thinking abut it, because she is growing up

* I wish I could freeze time

* I have enjoyed each age with my daughters, but the older they get the slower I want it to go

* I know that when I can't be with them I pray for extra angel's to be around them

* it is hard letting go yet God is helping me to be strong in this area

* I trust my daughters & pray that they make the right choices in life

* I look forward to everyday being their momma

Simply the Best!!!!!

2010-10-19T00:20:00.003-04:00

"The Bible is a compass, pointing you in the right direction."
"Darkness cannot put out the Light. It can only make God brighter."
"Unless we rely on God's power within us, we will yield to the pressures around us."
"God's answers are wiser than our prayers."
"The winds of God are always blowing, but you must set the sails."
"God always answers in the deeps, never in the shallows of our soul."
"The cold world needs warm-hearted Christians."
"Weave in faith and God will find the thread."
"If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world."
"I believe in the sun even if it isn't shining. I believe in love even when I am alone. I believe in God even when He is silent."
"The safest place to be is within the will of God."
"God's last name is not Dammit."
"If you are not as close to God as you used to be, who moved?"
"No two Christians will ever meet for the last time."
"God understands our prayers even when we can't find the words to say them."
"You do well to believe in God. Satan also believes...and trembles.James 2:19"
"Some people talk about finding God - as if He could get lost."

If everything is comes your way, then you are in the wrong lane!!!

2010-10-18T07:47:00.005-04:00

Sometimes in life I feel like I am on a one lane wrong going no where. I feel like I am being used by people who care about me they say. Yet only call when they need something. I feel like I give & give & give yet people take & take & take. I just would love to have a normal day, yet what is normal?? REALLY?? Life has it's ups & downs my life just seems to have a fewer downs then ups..It scares me at times, because it just seems like when one thing is over something else is right around the corner!! I would love to be able to stay on the mountain top a little longer. I know that God is Good!! I am blessed, because of His great love for me!! I am forever grateful for the wonderful people God has sent in my life & the ones that have had to leave!! I am a better person, because of all these people in my life. Some of life lessons have been hard to understand & wow a little crazy. I have people IN my life that No matter what I for that I can' be considered a nice person, I am not here to make everyone happy, just to love God & share His word!! & I feel so lonely at times!!! I serve an awesome God turning my life into what He wants it to be. I know that I am not on the path that God had for me, yet God has made a new got ME on a new one & learning to lean on Jesus more!! Thank you to my daughters my family my friends & my prayer warriors that has been with me though all of this!!! God sure does show up in my life all the time yet sometimes stronger then others!!

Pastor Appreciation Month

2010-10-17T23:02:00.000-04:00

Thank you dad for being my pastor all my life! You are so amazing & I have been blessed being your daughter. You have been a great role model in my life. Thank you for always being my biggest cheerleader, very supported, prayer warrior, always being here when I needed you, praying with me anytime day or night and being my dad!! I thank God for being raised in a God fearing home, love being a preachers daughter & being taught the right way!! You are loved!!

I have been blessed having so many great christian men & women in my life over the years at the different church's my dad pastored! I have a great generation of christian grandparents in my life! I thank my grandpa & grandma Blair for all the years that they gave to preaching for the Kingdom of God, My Dad that has been preaching since I was born 35 years, my brother in law & sister Chris & Lisa for all the years they have given to preaching God's word & to my mother for being a preachers wife & mother!!

Thank you Pastor Hines for minding the Lord & sharing the Word of God with us every week! I am blessed to be sitting under your ministry. I know that God sent our family to this very church. It has been what we have needed & the church family here is amazing also! Thank you Mrs Hines for all you do supporting your husband & raising your children, Thank you Hines children & teens for being in the spotlight so often (I know being a preachers daughter myself) ya'll are wonderful children & a great influence yourself on our church family!! Thank you pastor Ben for being the Youth pastor here & all you for that is farther the kingdom of God through our teens. You are a wonderful influence on them & May God Bless you!! Thank you Pastor Ashely for all you do for our children U know that they are blessed to have you teaching the Word of Gos every week! You are a wonderful influence on our children another generations of souls being reached!! May God bless you!!

Cross Country FHS 2 mile!!!!

2010-10-16T06:49:00.001-04:00

Ms Jasmine with her papaw & mamaw after her 2 mile run!! Proud grandparents!!!

Ms Jasmine & her proud Momma!!!

I am one proud momma!! This is my sweet Ms Jasmine after finishing a 2mile run! This has been a great year watching Ms Jasmine in XCountry & Ms Daizi Cheering. I love that my daughters are in sports!! It has been great watching them over the years, soccer, cheer leading, gymnastics, basketball & XCountry! I am always there cheering them on with a smile on my face because there is no other place I would want to be. Knowing this is something they enjoy & them hanging with their friends it is amazing!! Susan & I have been tail Gating with the track team each week. Cooking them food, other parents do their part be bringing food, & out coach is awesome!! WE have a great group of teens that are a part of the XCountry team!! I will miss it, but I know my daughter will be in track & basketball the rest of the year. My Sweet Ms Jasmine I love you, always proud & love being your biggest cheerleader!!

TGIF

2010-10-15T08:33:00.003-04:00

* that my mom loved me through my teen years
* that being mom to two wonderful daughters makes me happy
* that the more I learn about JT I know he is the perfect man ever for me
* that God is working
* that this week was an easy one..lol..well easier then the last months
* that I love fall
* that the yard is all racked up
* that working with JT cutting wood for my dad last evening was fun
* that cooking dinner for my family is wonderful
* that I love to make bread now
* that I need to get a copy of my grandma's bread recipes
* that smiling makes your day better
* that I am blessed with so much
* that this has been a another great week that God has given us

Thinking Thursday????

2010-10-14T23:01:00.001-04:00

* where does the time go

* my daughters are growing up way to fast

* they are turning into young ladies

* I remember this age it was tough trying to find yourself

* everyday is a new one!!!

* I LOVE MORNING'S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

* Ms Jasmine is having her 1st school dance next week

* wow both of my daughters won't be in ths same school till High School

* I can see that they are young ladies now

Simply the Best

2010-10-12T02:09:00.005-04:00

* listening to the quiet of the morning before the day begins

* hearing the Word of God at church

* the peace that is all is well once again

* knowing God is in control when we feel so out of control

* how God works things out for His Good!!

* That God always loves us & is working in your life if you let Him

* that I am thankful for my church family for the cards, messages & hugs I have gotten through my time of sickness

* that decaf isn't that bad

* that the times with my daughters laughing is the best

* that I love the way he makes me smile

* I am blessed more then words can express

* that through everything God is always there

* that I am very blessed to have two amazing daughters

* that it is the little things in my life that makes me happy

* the mom I love yous are special

* getting to know Josh even more then the past three years is simply the best

* Doors that are opening & the ones God shut

* that even when I can't sleep I am thankful God gives me strength the next day!!!

If everything comes your way, then your in the wrong lane!!!

2010-10-11T23:34:00.001-04:00

This year and 1/2 was a tough year. There were days i felt so worn out & tired. I didn't know what laid ahead. I was so scared & the future was so uncertain, Our world was shaken. Things were said about me that wasn"t true. I had to wait on the Lord to prove it all. I prayed more this pasted year then I ever had prayed. The earthly battle was unbelievable. The pain I saw my daughters go through was something I pray that they never have to face again. Fear was very much apart of their everyday world. They didn't like what was being said or didn't like how their world was being torn upside down. We prayed, read the Bible went to the alter together as a family many Sundays. How do you tell them everything will turn out alright when I myself couldn't be for sure, Through many wonderful pray warriors & Gods will to be done the battle is over. My daughters are at peace again and they are happy with the out come. There is a joy returned in their hearts & souls that as their mom I had so missed. The relaxation of now knowing everything turned out right is what they needed to know. I wanted it to be fair & wanted what they wanted in the end. The result was just that. I will ever Praise the Lord for being there for us when we needed Him so much. That we can say even the very day & through prayer on that day God showed up. He was with all of us & the peace was amazing that flooded the room that day! I walked away praising God because my daughters got what they asked for. I will be forever grateful to my parents who was there for me through all of this. The nights when I needed someone to pray they were praying, when the girls couldn't sleep they even prayed with them on the phone, the days when I felt like I couldn't hold it in they were there to listen, the days when I felt weak & didn't know if I could be strong enough to keep my mouth shut even while people raised up against me they were there & so was God and most of all they loved us through it all!! My dad prayed with me that very morning, he stopped what he was doing & prayed with me on the phone, my mom prayed with me right there in the very room while we were waiting. Then I started singing songs of Praise to God my Father while I listened to things being said way to loud about me. I am so thankful that God gave me Bible verses when I heard such ugly things being said, & a song in my heart for peace that wasn't there, and in the end God was there!!! I just always want the best for my daughters. I know I didn't' go into details about what it all was that we were facing, yet I had to Praise God for His love, mercy & grace through this time. He is a great God! He loves us & I am forever thankful for that!! Again thank you the ones that prayed when all I asked was to pray. I am thankful for an amazing group of God fearing friends in my life. Please keep us in your prayers as we keep traveling along this path that we didn't chose in the beginning, but God is working & that is the most important part! He is healing pain & pulling things back into place. Thank you God!!! Th new path we are headed on we know He is in charge & that is what matters now!!!

Friend Sunday!!!

2010-10-10T22:10:00.000-04:00

We had a wonderful sermon spoken to us today! It was about being a friend & having friends!!

Thank you Pastor Bill for always minding God & allowing Him to use you to speak to our hearts!!

This is the outline from Sunday!!

By: Pastor Bill Hines

What is a Genuine friend?

Luke 5:17-16

Genuine friendship is four things

Genuine friends carry friends..(18)

Often friends carry us

Emotionally

Spiritually

Physically

Genuine friendship looks inward not Outward (18)

Genuine friends demonstrate love

Three types of love I hope you demonstrate:

Encouraging love ( I Thessalonians 5:11)

Confronting love

Sacrificial love

Genuine friends introduce friends to Jesus (19-20)

http://www.broadwaynazarene.com/
(go there & click Plug In on the Right hand side I promise you that you to will be lifted up & touched by the words that were spoken!!

Saturday Fun!!!

2010-10-09T23:30:00.005-04:00

We had a great time Saturday morning enjoying Cosi on Wheels at our local mall!!

We girl's love to go here every year!! Since we haven't been there this year yet. I am so thankful that We were able to go to the Cosi on wheels!!

http://www.cosi.org/educators/cosi-on-wheels/

We had a great time Saturday, Ms Jasmine, Ms Daizi , Tristen & Kyara & myself went to Cosi on Wheels, BK for lunch, Pet land to play with the animals & then YAY!! Ice Cream!

We had a great day together for sure..We then headed to Ms Daizi's Homecoming game. She rocked it like always. I love to watch my daughter cheer!!

TGIF!!!!

2010-10-08T07:47:00.007-04:00

* That God answers prayers in His time
* That God knows what He is doing at all times
* That learning to lean on God is something that I am doing daily
* That God knows my future & that brings peace to my soul!!
* That God has brought many new great amazing friends into my life this year along
* That three years ago God knew what He was doing bring TJ into my life as my BF forever
* That my church family is always there for me
* That my daughters have a new smile & peace on their face
* That the valleys has made me love the mountain tops even more
* That through the darkest valleys Jesus is my shining LIGHT!!!!
* That I love how God sends me to the right stores to find the best deal for my daughters clothes * That God always meets my needs
* That I know my cell phone is broken but through the faith in God things will work out some how!!
* That Faith in God will move mountains
* That my daughters are my life
* That I look forward to painting again!!! (thanks mom for finding a lady to work with me)
* That there is always hope in everything
* That God has kept His hand on Ms Jasmine & I during all the trips to OSU for her braces
* That I could go on & on naming things to be thankful for, because God is so GOOD!!!!

Thinking Thursday!!!!

2010-10-07T04:44:00.003-04:00

* Peace is in our lives again

* the unknown of some things are known now

* blessed with so many prayer warriors in our lives

* I am only who I am because of the love of Jesus

* smiles are natural again

* fear is gone

* loved all around

* excited for our future

* happiness to the Lord

* blessed blessed

* I am glad this Battle is over & knowing God was in control the whole time

* being on my knees in prayer is never a bad thing

* blessed with family & friends that love us

* I am happy my daughters are feeling better

* That God is still on the Throne

* my daughters have a peace

* that no matter how tough live gets God is always there

God answering Prayers!!!

2010-10-06T21:29:00.000-04:00

There has been a battle raging over a year now that has had me on my knees for sometime. I am thankful that God stepped in & handled it for me. I had many prayer warriors praying for us. Many didn't even know what for, just to pray & they did just that. I even had my dad on the phone with me praying yesterday the day of the ending of everything. It was an answer to prayer for everyone involved. God is Good all the time!!

I stand firm on the Word of God! I know everything in His word is true! I believe in all God Word says. I know we live in a fallen world. Yet God said,"That He wouldn't be anything upon us that we couldn't bare."

I held my moms hand in the very room & we began to pray. God was all around us & it was amazing the peace that came over the place. People didn't even see the angels that was there but mom & I did. They didn't know God was in control , not the people that was everywhere, but mom &I could see it. The way there became a peace in my heart & all the sermons that my pastor had been preaching about loving people through the cross came rushing into my mind. I started signing songs of praise to God right in the very room. I will be forever thankful to all my friends family &prayer warriors you also had this burdens for my daughters. in the end the most important thing is my daughters are happy, healthy, loved, safe, what they wanted to be done & happy with the out come. I will forever see this has an answer to prayer. I thank you Jesus for this battle of not knowing because I am now on the other side & through it all I have grown deeper in my faith, mountains were moved & peace was brought back into our lives. I love you Lord!! Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!

Sick!!!!!

2010-10-05T23:20:00.000-04:00

Both of my daughters have been having this ear infection now for over six weeks. I had taken them both two the docotor over it. The medicine just hasn't been working. They get better for a little bit then sick all over again. I know stress can cause you to be sick & our world has been a little stressful, but today God came in & took care of all of that for us. His will was done for our family in a mighty way!! I picked up Ms Jasmine from school early on Monday her ears hurting & being dizzy. Ms Daizi came home from school Monday night with their ears hurting again. I called the doctor & made appointments for them both again for Today. We went in they were all checked out, given new medicine, x-rays of their face to see if the infection was deep in their sinus', & then since Ms Jasmine has allergies really bad they changed her medincie to a stronger one. We went out to dinner with my parents while waiting on all the medicines to be filled. They will be on bedrest till they go back to school on Thursday!

I hurt because they hurt It will be nice when they are back to 100%

Monday Memories

2010-10-04T03:45:00.001-04:00

I loved going to any sporting event with my ad. I remember when we moved to a church in the Parkersburg WV it was near a High School. We would walk over to many football games, basketball games & some wrestling. My dad would answer any question I asked about the sport. I was in the forth grade the first time I remember going to a huge sporting even like that with just my dad. He would explain everything to me. I understood it completely & so enjoyed sports from then on. I loved learning how it all worked & the cheerleaders, because I wanted to become one. I then started playing basketball & cheering at my school. I had a love for sports because of my dad. He never was upset if I asked him what was going on. His love for sports showed by the way he explained everything in detail to me till I understood it. These were very special times with me dad. He then took me to the other High School in the area since that was the one he graduated from more often when He got his truck so mom had the car. I went to other games with my BF with her teen Church group those were a blast also, to be honest I missed dad not being there with me then. I thank my dad for introducing me to sports & the love of them. I remember getting all excited, yelling for my team, telling dad unfair call & my dad would smile. He always sat there quietly yet would smile because of course I am full of passion & would be one of the loudest cheering on the team I liked. We would listen To Cinn. Red games on the radio, since we grew up with no TV in our home. I played basketball 4th-6th, cheered from 4th - 12th, terack from 4th - 6th & then 10th -12th & played volleyball from 7th - 12th. The Christian school I tarted at in Jr High only offered cheerleading & volleyball for girls & the christian school I graduated from only offered cheering, track & volleyball for girls. My love of watching all sports, not a huge fan of golf is because my dad took the time out of his life to explain the game, take me to them & encourage me to be in sports. Thank you dad!!!

Weekend Update

2010-10-03T07:52:00.004-04:00

BLUE SKIES!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am telling you that I just love the blue sky after a rain storm!! I had my blue sky on Friday! The News I received was so up lifting & what my daughters & I both sooooooo needed!! I serve a GREAT BIG GOD!!!! I am blessed so much! My dearest friends that read this if you want to know the GREAT News message me on FB or email me!!! Other then that I just say Praise the Lord!!

Friday..Homecoming game..Ms Daizi cheered with the high School cheer leaders & our girls rocked it!!!

Saturday...Ms Jasmine went on a school canoe field trip...She loved it & had a great time

My dear dog Cosmo..he had the surgery..He is home recovery..Being spoiled as always..We love him

My dear friend & children came over to spend the weekend with us & it was awesome!!!

Ms Daizi had a home game to cheer at..Cheer pictures before that..It rained was cold yet we had a great time!!! I know I am one bragging mom..but our cheerleaders are the BEST!!!

Sunday..here is our plans for Sunday...Morning Worship, because Ms Daizi will be tired form cheering in the rain & being late getting home... so I am letting her sleep in & we will be back to Sunday School & Morning Worship next week..Ms Jasmine will be at the Diabetes Walk for a cure with one of her BFF..My wonderful friend & children will be heading back home today, they will be missed but looking forward to our next time all together...My Ms Daizi will be going on church field trip on Sunday afternoon..then back to church in the evening!! I LOVE SUNDAYS!!

TGIF!!!!!

2010-10-01T04:02:00.004-04:00

My hearts desire!!!! I am so Thanking God it is Friday !!!

* that I have the best Church family in the world, the prays, messages , texts & been so up lifting * that I have family that I call upon & they start praying!!! day or night!!!!
* another week went by & we are safe
* because I am looking forward to our weekend
* because I am blessed with some amazing ladies that are my friends
* because JT is on his long break YAY!!
* because God sees all & is always there for us
* because I got my daughters phone replaced, since her new one broke..not fun
* because God is working in live of people I am praying for
* God is AWESOME!!
Bless the Lord, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name.

Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits:

who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;

who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with loving-kindness and tender mercies;

who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's.

Psalms 103:1-5

Thinking Thursday!!

2010-09-30T09:26:00.003-04:00

* that I love to get my Rachel to do list longer & longer..lol
* that I will be starting on redoing my kitchen soon YAY!!
* that I so enjoyed my day with my dad yesterday stacking wood
* that I love talking to JT, he is a God sent in my life
* that I enjoy having Cosmo in my life, because the house isn't so quiet when the girls aren't here * that I love watching my daughter Ms Daizi cheer
* that I love watching my daughter Ms Jasmine run XC 2 miles
* that I am country girl all the way
* that I love to go 4 wheeling & get muddy
* that I am going to learn how to hunt this year!! I am pumped :-)
* that I know how to cut up the deer meat, I think it will taste better if I shot I..LOL
* that my church family is so amazing their love, support & prayers have been & what I need
* that I am blessed with a best friend Sherry, I have wanted one for years!!
* that I think a lot!!!

Where we've been

2010-09-29T14:16:00.007-04:00

It will be nice when all of it will be cut up for dad!! One less thing he needs to worry about!!

We have loads more to split & cut. I am thankful that I am blessed with wonderful friends that will be here next week to help my dad out!!! I love to wear my rain boots..Mine are White & bright Polk a Dots, so I wore them today working with my dad!!!

My dad did a lot of cutting while I filled the trailer & helped him stack

Dad & I spent the afternoon together & it was so much fun!!

Simply the Best!!!!

2010-09-28T07:40:00.003-04:00

* Love
* Hope
* Peace
* Gentleness
* Joy
* Long suffering
*Goodness
* Faith
* Prayer
* Family
* Church Family
* Friends
* Pets
* Future
* Past Forgiven
* The Blood

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA!!!!!!

2010-09-27T09:58:00.003-04:00

Happy Birthday to my older sister!!! Lisa you are an amazing sister, aunt & momma!! I love you so much! You are one of the women in my life that I look up to in so many area's of your life! You are amazing, special, go getter, friendly, caring, put others before yourself, thoughtful beautiful & so much more!!! My sister is an amazing bloger..check her blog our sometime..... http://shinnsstew.blogspot.com/

There isnt enough words to desribe this amazing lady!! Even if we weren't sisters I know we would be friends!! I love you very much..

Your Sister

If everything is going your way, then you are in the wrong lane

2010-09-27T03:32:00.004-04:00

Broken laid out pouring my soul out to my Maker, the creator of Heaven & earth!! This is sometimes how I pray to My Father! I talk to Him like I talk to anyone else in my life showing respect, yet He sees me for who I really am!! He knows my heart. I am so very thankful, because He doesn't judge, He loves me, yet He does tell me how to live my life! By reading the Bible praying, talking to Him, listen to sermons, reading books of christian faith & my one on one time with God alone.

God, This path I am on right now is very rocky. How do I keep going? My faith is all in you, I know you are in control, here we are God here at this cross rd. I have no idea what lays ahead for me, because the future now seems so unsteady. I am trusting in you & I know you will work everything out for your glory!! In the weeks ahead I will be able to sit back & Praise you for walking with us through this dark uncertain valley in life. My dad always said,"What won't kill you will just make you stronger." I know that this path is dark & scary, yet you are here beside me holding my hand!! I lay it all at your feet. I want it to be fair. Peace again through troubled water. Joy in lives & hearts changed. Healing of broken spirits!!!! :=Love renewed & lives turned inside upside & inside right to you!!! I give you my daughters, because I know that when I am not with them you are!!! Please give me the wisdom to grow, change & become more like you!!! I want people to see Jesus and not me!!

REJOICE!!!!!

2010-09-26T06:35:00.001-04:00

My lips will shout for joy when I sing praise to you-I, whom you have redeemed!!! Ps. 74:23

Today while reading my morning devotions I was over come with emotions. I often feel like in the valley's what do I really have to Praise God about. Yes I pray, talk & do my best to stay positive through it all. Yet when I read from (Light from the Word....Wesley Bible Resources)

it gave me a whole new outlook this morning..Marion Gorman...speaks about the most important thing to Praise God about at all times is our SALVATION!!!! He says this," The privilege of an intimate relationship with the God of creation through believing on the name of Jesus Christ is more then PRAISEWORTHY!!!!!" I sat there and thought how powerful & true. No matter what you are facing or faced in life, just having that relationship with God is enough. I don't desire anything else but to have that personal, talking to God my Best friend relationship with Him always. I give Him everything, my home, money, my daughters, my life, my friends & the people that I know that needs that personal relationship with God daily!! I need to Praise Him more!!! Praising God through the bad times is when it is the hardest, yet we are blessed because He did send his Son to die for US (you & me)....WHAT LOVE!!!!! I never will be thinking through the darkest of days what do I even have to Praise Him for right now, because I know that I have Salvation & that is PRAISEWORTHY!!! Thank you Marion Gorman..It was just want I needed to hear. I tell you that is what I love about my relationship with God, is He gives us what we need, what we need to hear, the people in our lives that we need if we are really praying about them, & more then that He gave up HIS SON to die for even me & even you!!!!

Praising Him through this valley right now!!!!

Best Rest!!!!!!!

2010-09-25T11:32:00.005-04:00

72 hours..hard for me to do!!! Thank you daughters, JT & parents for helping me out this weekend!!!

This is something that I can't stand just laying around!!!! grrrrrrrr..As you see I am sitting up typing this..LOL..going to get in trouble when they come back with food (if I don't get back in bed or am laying down resting)

I am trying to just kick my feet up so that I can be better & back to normal as soon as possible!! Thank you my gang of family & BF JT that is watching out for me this weekend, taking Cosmo out, keeping me company, going to my daughters track meet & cheer leading & then making me Rest!!!

TGIF

2010-09-24T22:42:00.003-04:00

* for my parents & JT for being there for my during my surgery

* for Pastor Bill & Pastor Ashley coming down to pray for me before the surgery

* for my sister's prayers, checking in on me & texts to check in on me!!!

* for many facebook messages, comments, emails, & texts from friends & family supporting & loving me

* knowing that God was in the surgery room guiding the doctors hands

* for my Great Physical that loves me & is always watching over me

* for the hospital staff that was so kind & took care of me

* for my daughters who was so understanding knowing that I wont be at their track meet or cheer leading tomorrow

* for my dad that is going to Ms Jasmine XCountry meet a hour away just so she will have someone there to support her

* for my Dad, JT & Jasmine taking & going to watch Ms Daizi cheer tomorrow because I can't be there to support her

* for the many texts saying if I need anything they will be there for me

* for being blessed with wonderful family, church family & friends that is praying for me

* for the hospital chaplain (he goes to my church) stopping in to pray with me, talk to my mom, JT & ,myself

* for the love I feel right now from everyone around me

* for God helping me breath through the pain

* for being blessed more then I ever knew
* I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thinking Thursday?????

2010-09-23T08:35:00.002-04:00

* that I am blessed by God more then I deserve
* that I have three beautiful daughters..1 with Jesus & 2 with me :-)
* that God has been brought some wonderful people into my life
* that I am praying for God's direction in all areas of my life
* that I am my old self again & I have God to thank for that
* that I feel like I did back in high School
* that God has brought some friends back into my life that I had missed
* that God knows what is in my future & that I am thankful for
* that we need to be kind on the outside as well as in the inside
* that showing the love of Jesus is what we need to be doing every day
* that I am learning to Praise God through the darkest valley that I am walking right now
* that God is in total control
* that I am blessed with two wonderful sisters & a friend who I call Sista

Where we've been

2010-09-22T22:56:00.000-04:00

My last weekend was fun filled that is for sure...

Friday.....Girl's no school day because the tornadoes that knocked out power in our area, listening to them laugh play & have loads of fun, Doctor visit, hang out with my daughters till 7:15 pm when they left for their dad's, the power coming back on & watching movies with JT

Saturday.....Alzheimer's walk in the memory of my Grandma that is now in Heaven (my sisters, some of my cousins (one of their two boys) & their husbands) going to Claudia's grave with my both of my sisters, lunch with the whole McCoy gang (Luke you were missed), http://www.wvculture.org/goldenseal/fflist.html
The Harvest Moon Festival with the whole McCoy gang (Luke you were missed the whole time), being aunt all afternoon, & then going to my BF Sherry's house for a church teen party!!

Sunday.....Went to Stewart Wesleyan Church's Homecoming, My dad is he preacher there, it was our home church for 12 years, (until last March after much prayer my daughter's & I went to Broadway Nazarene Church and I know it is where God called us) It was great to see so many people we hadn't seen in a very long time, Great to be in church with my parents for the day, A wonderful home cooked meal & great church family fellowship, then an away game for Ms Daizi to cheer for her school team, a great time for sure got to be aunt for the afternoon because Emma came with us, and then the evening spending time with my parents, sister, Emma & my daughters

Simply the Best!!!!

2010-09-21T03:41:00.001-04:00

* decaff coffee..got to love it because now have to switch
* text messages from my sisters
* test messages from my BFF!!!
* the awesome weather, because windows are open
* answered prayers, God giving just enough so that I could buy what I needed for my daughters cross country meet
* caring friends you text message, call, & facebook comments through this tough time
* my dad fixing the car YAY!!!!!, no more of loads of my money going into the truck
* tailing gating time at every Cross Country meet
* doctors who is helping fix me up
* caring Friends you listen no matter what it is about o r the time
* praying parents I can call anytime day or night & they pray with us
* God sending me everything I have every needed!!!

Memories

2010-09-18T23:36:00.000-04:00

www.alz.org/index.asp

Grandma We miss you! Today as we were together we missed you even more. I remember yu being the best cook ever!! I knw that the last few years on this earth had to be hard on you! yet you are now in the arms of Jesus & relaxing with Grandpa!!! Keep an eye on Claudia till I get there!! I pray that they find a cure for Alzheimer. My heart breaks knowing that many families suffer from this, too. We all love you Grandma!!! We walked in your memory today! Your heart would have been happy to see us together today!!! You will never be forgotten!!

TGIF

2010-09-17T01:08:00.001-04:00

* for our home

* for the food we have to eat

* for the family game times

* for the hugs from my daughters

* for the I LOVE YOUS

* for the long talks my daughters & I have

* for the mornings getting everyone ready & on time

* for the wonderful weather we are having

* for family

* for love that covers our sins, if we just ask Jesus in our hearts

* for forgiveness

* for the faith my grandparents had & has also that they that took my parents to church

* for God fearing grandparents on both sides

* for wonderful friends that God is bringing into my life

Thinking Thursday???

2010-09-16T00:50:00.004-04:00

* Is God's favorite colors Green & blue? They are the top two colors
* Is a cat by any other name still a cat?
* Is your favorite color blue?
* Is your time with God the most important?
* Is your day filled with prayers for just your needs or for others too?
* Is your life pleasing to God?
* Is the way you look on the inside sines through your outside, too?
* Is your thought life what it should be?
* Is your heart right with God?
* Is your home a place where God is in charge?
* Is your day thanking God more then complaining?
* Is there things that you still need to hand over to God?
* Is there anything that you need to do to increase God's Kingdom or farther?

These things I am thinking I think about them for myself. I want my insides & my outside to always be pleasing to God. I want people to see God not me!!!

Where we've been

2010-09-15T10:46:00.008-04:00

I love being momma!! These wonderful God fearing sweet inside & out beautiful daughters of mine that God blessed me with sure makes me smile everyday!! I enjoy every part of being momma. The days that not so great moods, the good moods and the long days that have you pulled so thin you don't know how you will get it all done. With God's help, family & wonderful friends we girl's are blessed, because like I have said before being a single momma is tough at times! Yet I am blessed my parents, my sisters, & close friends jump in there to help out where it is needed!! This is where we will be for another month and 1/2 half Track meets & Football oh yes practices too!!!! I love it!!!
Ms Jasmine & one of her XCountry team mates...Proud momma..Ms Jasmine trimmed another 2 minutes off her last meet!!!

Ms Jasmine & part of her XCountry team waiting to run their 2 miles!!!!

Ms Daizi & her squad...half time dance!!!

Ms Daizi...getting ready to lead us in a crowd cheer!!!!

Ms Daizi...football games!!!!!

Simply the Best!!!!

2010-09-14T23:34:00.003-04:00

* texting from home now (we have cell service yay)
* cranberry juice when you have kidney stones
* friends that are praying for you
* comments on FB that people are thinking about me through this
* emails from friends
* friends & family that are here for me
* being lazy is hard for me to do, but wow I was able to do just that yesterday, because a friend stop by just to bring me cranberry juice & take my dog out all day!!
* doctors that know how to help
* my mom who told me which doctor to go to to help me
* daughters who helped me out last night
* thankful that I was able to get into the doctors so fast
* God's ways are far above our ways..He is in control..I am thankful I am in his hands

If everything is going your way, then your in the wrong lane

2010-09-13T09:13:00.004-04:00

Life seems dark sometimes & there are times the bad days out way the good ones. I know as of late I have been having problems with my Dystonia again. Fear grips my heart, because I remember how it was back when it first started. I know God healed my legs, had my sister Regina find the right doctor, has kept this far & so may other impossibles with doctors yet with God all things are possible. I have been losing my voice, talking slow, not saying the right words that are in my head yet different ones come, stuttering, my left foot is messed up but wearing a wrap so that is all good & the fear of the unknown. I know I was told after 5 years it would stop progressing or get worse. I know that the medicine I have been on for the last 5 years can be changed, there are even more options that I can do to help, and I am the one that will do anything I canto be normal with Dystonia so I can live life to the fullest. I have wonderful friends that don't even think about it when I talk slow or stutter with my Dystonia, my daughters helps me think of the word so I can get it out (it is crazy it is in my brain yet I can't say it), family and friends that looks at me the same when I am having a bad day (I call them) or a good day. I have been under loads of stress which is the biggest trigger & not sleeping. Another one I cant seem to do anymore is sleep. I will wake up every hour or two, which is not good! I have been doing all I can to help keep stress down, resting more, trying to relax so I can sleep & the last thing I need to do is start swimming. I plan on joining the gym next month!!! It will be fun & a thing that will be for me YAY!! We mommas all need things just for us. This one will be fun, benefits my health, my daughters (less spells, even though it is just my voice), feeling better about myself, in shape YAY!! & I can cut down on some of my medicine. That would be the best, because some of the side effects long term not so great. We serve a GREAT BIG GOD!!! He knows what He is doing and my faith lays in His hands. I will Praise Him through the rough days & the good days. He love me, enough to have sent His son to die for even me. I find myself on bad days when I praise Him that my strength is renewed & the day doesn't feel that bad. Please keep me in your prayers as this new chapter of my Dystonia plays out. I am trusting God to lead my doctors in the right path to do healing and to have me on the right medicine! Thank you for all your support through prayers, loving me & always standing beside me! You know who you are!! The road may seem dark, but I know the amazing loving God who walks beside me, so I have nothing to fear!!! God is the best friend to being hanging out with on those dark roads..He is the shining light & has already over come the world!!
I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
John 16:3

Weekend Update

2010-09-12T23:45:00.004-04:00

*Beth, Ashley, Amanda, Andrea, Jasmine, Daizi & Myself another sleep over..we 7 girls rock
* having a fun day at track, hanging with Susan & tailgating for FHS track team
* watching my Ms Jasmine cross the finish line at X Country & shaving 2 minutes off her time!!
* watching my Ms Daizi hang out with her friend Emily at the track field being all goofy!
* watching the bond my daughters are forming with their friends
* having a wonderful sleepover with my cousins & her daughters
* watching my Ms Daizi cheer & loving it
* talking with Beth she is like a sista to me more so then a cousin
* hanging out with Susan on Sunday night watching football at my house
* getting text messages from my best friend
* knowing God is in control of everything & loving life
* taking one day at a time
* listening to the girls talk about how much fun they had hiking up the hill (Ashley & Jasmine)
* having the house full of laughter & more girls the better
* this weekend was so much fun!!!
* Christmas shopping already

9/11 - IN MEMORY OF THE WORLD TRADE CENTER

2010-09-11T04:03:00.002-04:00

Please pause the radio player on the side!! You all will never be forgotten. My prayer & hearts desire is that God gives you special peace to the ones that lost family or friends that day!

TGIF

2010-09-10T23:03:00.001-04:00

* for the special people in my life
* for having our cell phones working at our house
* for those little things we enjoy everyday
* for the smiles on my daughters faces
* for the great deals i have found this week
* for the items I have been able to buy for Christmas already
* for God loving me always
* for our church family that loves us girls
* for praying parents that even my daughters call them to have them pray with them on the phone
* for hugs & when my daughters cuddle with me in the mornings
* for the time I have with each of my daughters in the mornings because of their different school schedules this year
* for the cool ring I bought this week..got it for a steal
* for all my friends that read my blog & encourages me on FB, when I talk to them or through emails
* for God opening up doors

Thinking Thursday

2010-09-09T03:49:00.000-04:00

* God is answering prayer right now
& that standing in the gap for my unsaved friends & family is what God is calling me to do
* that some people need more love, since wow they always seem to be cranky
* that my road trips with my Ms Jasmine to OSU will only be 6 left over the next 2 years..going to miss those days
* that I saw the pictures from My Ms jasmines ortho file today, Praising God He sent us to he best in the state, because he sis a great job..Looks like a different child, bu then again it was three grades ago!!!
* that when I need my family & friends they are always a phone call away
* that God answered prayer our cell phones works at our house, so now we are saving money with no house phone!!
* that when you fall on your knees before God He will be right there beside you
* that I am blessed with such an amazing relationship with both of my daughters
* that even on the worse of days there is always something to be happy about, Praise God for & be positive
* that my dystonia is just s little part of me, trusting God through this time
* that I am blessed with a wonderful Sunday School class that is praying for a special need in my life & they are really loving us through this time!! THANK YOU
* that when my daughters are having a day, that is what we call it! They sit on my lap and we pray. We often call my parents and they pray over the phone with us!!
* that I am blessed with even more great friends in my life..God knew my hearts desire & He is sending those amazing friends my way
* that I am blessed I have wonderful friends that I can call on to help me out when I need someone to pick up one of my daughters if I'm with my other daughter at a doctor appointment or something else!! THANK YOU!! Being a single momma I am blessed that we have a wonderful out reach of friends & my parents that are always the ones we call to be there for us!!
* that I have been doing things just for me and it has been helping me even be a better momma

Simply the Best

2010-09-07T09:22:00.001-04:00

One of My Best!!!

Pastor Ashley..a great influence on my daughters life & one of My Best!!!!

One of My Best

Oh yes!!! FOOTBALL!!! GO WV!!!!!! I love those 'EERS!!!!

A great book

I love flip flops..YAY!! my Ms Jasmine and I wear the same size you know that just means double the flip flops!!!

I love my black boots..yes I paid &4.99 for them & the original price from the start was &149.99..God sure does answer my prayers when I needed new boots..here they were!!!

They are back..my favorite bracelets when I was in grade school..yes I wear them now!!!

To the world you are just one person, but to one person you could mean the world.

Monday Memories

2010-09-06T06:06:00.004-04:00

I was looking for something for my daughter & I ran across something my little sister wrote to me 5 years ago on my Birthday!!!

30 years

30 years ago on February 19 you were born

39 years ago you were brought home

30 years ago you brought tears to proud parents eyes

30 years ago a can of similac cost $0.25

30 years ago you made Lisa become a big sister

30 years you lived, I have only know you for 27

30 years you have been in our family

30 years God has watched over you and protected you

30 years you have shed a lot of tears

30 years you have laughed a lot

30years have gone by quickly

30 years have gone by slow

30 years old and you don't look a day over 20

30 years ago God knew where you would be at today

30 years from now you will be 60

30 years old and still filled with love

30 years of grace and mercy

30 years of kindness and friendship

30 years of mountains and valleys

30 years old and wiser each day

30 years of mistakes along the way

30 years of triumphs too

30 years of being proud of you

30 years to show you we Care

30 years we have said we love you

30 years we have not said it enough

30 years more we will try to catch up

30 years of love never failing

30 years and God still reigns

30 years old Happy Birthday to you

We love you very much

Regina, Luke & J-man..little Emma wasn't born yet!!!

INSIDE OUT!!!!!!

2010-09-05T07:12:00.006-04:00

http://www.broadwaynazarene.com/

A place where we go often. A place where we are family. A place where we fill the Holy Spirit. A places where The Word of God is preached, but not watered down, but from the heart of a man that Loves God and you know that the words he speaks are from God above. A place where we worship. A place where we find peace. A place you need to come if you don't know the Lord as your best friend and your sins are not covered by the BLOOD of Jesus!!!!! A place where you come as you are and God does the rest!!! You can see in the picture below that God loves me as me, the outside maybe different, but He has saved my soul & I want people to see Jesus when they look at me & not me. A place where our preacher says this," I bring my worship with me when I come to church!!" Pastor Hines

God has been doing a work inside of me!! That as you see even with a tat on my foot He loves me as I am & has taken me into His loving arms & has cleaned my insides right up!!!
As you can see my hair is red on top & black on the bottom. I have a nose ring. Yet God died on the cross for even me. I have never felt closer, more peace, loved, the BEST OF BEST FRIENDS, He never leaves me, and He loves me as I am. God has taken all my SINS and covered them with HI BLOOD!!!! I am going to leave some of my all time favorite Bible verse below I pray that they bring peace to you where you are at right now!!!!

Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
Lamentations 3:22&23

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil.
For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved.
But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God.
John 3:16-21

The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever
Psalm 23

Three Bullets

2010-09-04T03:06:00.004-04:00

Subject:
Three Bullets

There once was a man who had nothing for his family to eat.

He had an old rifle and three bullets. So, he decided that he would go out hunting and kill some wild game for dinner.

As he went down the road, he saw a rabbit. He shot at the rabbit and missed it.

The rabbit ran away.

Then he saw a squirrel and fired a shot at the squirrel and missed it.

The squirrel disappeared into a hole in a cottonwood tree.

As he went further, he saw a large wild "Tom" turkey in the tree, but
he had only one bullet remaining.

A voice spoke to him and said, "Pray first, aim high and stay
focused."

However, at the same time, he saw a deer which was a better kill.
He brought the gun down and aimed at the deer. But, then he saw a rattlesnake between his legs about to bite him, so he naturally brought the gun down
further to shoot the rattlesnake.

Still, the voice said again to him, "I said 'Pray, Aim high and Stay
focused."

So, the man decided to listen to God's voice.

He prayed, then aimed the gun high up in the tree and shot the wild turkey.

The bullet bounced off the turkey and killed the deer.

The handle fell off the gun and hit the snake in the head and killed it.
And, when the gun had gone off, it knocked him into a pond.

When he stood up to look around, he had fish in all his pockets, a dead deer and a turkey to eat for his family.

The snake (Satan) was dead simply because the man listened to God.

Moral of the story:

Pray first before you do anything, Aim and shoot high in your goals, and stay focused on God.

Never let others discourage you concerning your past. The past is exactly that.
"the past."

Live every day one day at a time and remember that only God knows our future and that He will not put you through any more than you can bear

Do not look to man for your blessings, but look to the doors that only He has prepared in advance for you in your favor.

Wait, be still and patient: keep God first and everything else will follow.

Pass this on in order that someone else might be blessed.

FROM ONE FRIEND TO ANOTHER

Thanks to my dear friend for sending this in a email that he passed on! It was a blessing to me, so I thought I would share it with the blog world!!!

TGIF

2010-09-03T00:03:00.000-04:00

* the special times I had with my daughters this week

* love it how close my daughters & I are

* loves that God sent a new friend..Brooke...into my life

* loves that I have a fun filled weekend ahead for me

* loves it that I have reconnected with a great friend from my past

* loves it that I am blessed with so many friends I have been praying that God would send some great ones in my life and he has

* loves that I have an adopted sista (Sherry) and her family is our second family we all get along GREAT!!!

* loves that even though I am a single women I have some of the sweetest friends that are always there for me

* loves that I have friends that knows when I need a good laugh

* loves that I have plans all the time now because my life is full & I am truly happy

* loves that my daughter is starting a blog because she is an amazing writer

* loves watching my daughter cheer (it is a sport)

* loves watching my daughter run cross country

Thinking Thursday

2010-09-02T08:08:00.004-04:00

* I need to show the Love of Jesus more....
* I need to love people through the cross
* I need to go where the people are
* I need to pray for the lost souls in my family & circle of friends
* I need to stand in the gap for the ones that hurt the people I love
* I need to lean more on God then I do
* I need to ask for His help daily
* I need to have Him in complete control over everything
* I need to ask God to help me to show the love of Jesus to everyone in my life
* I need to let go & let God handle all of my trials
* I need to praise Him even in the rough times
* I need more of Jesus & never want to get to a place that I don't

A friend of mine wrote this below on facebook..She is a blessing in my life & I thank God for sending her my way. She is a Sister in Christ & one of my biggest encourager's. I don't even think she really knows how much!!! I love her through Christ!! I pray the words below encourages you as much as they did & still do for me.........What a great way of thinking!!!!!!!!!!!

I used to pray Lord help me to like the people I'm supposed to love. Then it got easier from there. Thank God He is my pilot cause I would have crashed and burned so many times with out Him! (not that I haven't). But it is easier to let Him... drive or open my doors for me. When He goes in first, I can usually handle the situation. It's when I leave Him at the door that I crash and burn. Hard lesson to learn but I always check myself before....it's not a got this, got that..the first thing I look for..Got Jesus...yep...then I say go on Jesus I'll follow you in and then I can go on to what ever situation is in front of me. Tho it may still hurt sometimes, but by golly its gonna hurt in Him!! Just my lessons learned in the Lord.
written by: Sarra Davis

Where I've Been.....

2010-09-01T01:01:00.001-04:00

Walking through new open doors. My dad always said,"Pray that God closes the door so tight that we can't even open it ourselves, and in His timing He would open a door for you. Or when one door close another one opens." Oh how true this is. I have been finding myself right here with some doors closing and then others opening. I know that it is God's will for my life to be where I am at church, with the friends I hang out with, the place we live and etc. I have found that there is prefect peace in laying it all out for Him. I have to still do this daily, because the devil loves to bring up something else yo try and have me fall, but I just have pray about it more, so I can hand it over to God then let Him handle it for me. I am learning to lean on Jesus for everything. The peace that comes after a storm is what I have been feeling. Now I will tell you there are days I cry, still yet, because uncertain about things that are happening. I know that God holds tomorrow and is opening the doors in my life that He wants me. I don't want to enter any of these doors with out Him opening them so wide I have to step through them. I have been in a place right now that God is dealing with my heart, soul and mind that I have never found myself at. I am thankful for God's love & grace.
Looking forward to many other closed door & opened ones. I know that I am learning everyday that if we just let go & let God are days run smoother or at least we have joy with us. I want to have that joy all day long, my prayer to my wonderful Lord!!!

Simply the Best

2010-08-31T01:00:00.004-04:00

* Listening to my daughters gigging when they sleep together
* Watching them have those little secrets they just share
* The special bond that they have & I pray it is never broken
* The way they miss each other when they both are not home together or just when they are not together
* How sometimes they act like.."What that is not my sister in public"...lol..joking
* How they both are totally created different, but the love I feel for them is the same special mother/daughter bond
* The joy they bring into my life daily
* Their hugs out of no where
* I love it when they walk through the room I am in & they say,"I love you mommy!"
* Their concerns for lost souls
* Their love for one another & the rest of their family
* The sounds of their laughter
* Even days when they aren't getting along they love each other
* The little things they do for each other & even me
* Enjoying every season of their lives
* Pre-teen isn't has bad as i was told it was going to be
* I could go on & on when it comes to my wonderful, God fearing, loving nature daughters!

If everything comes your way, then your in the wrong lane

2010-08-30T07:37:00.000-04:00

http://www.dystonia-foundation.org/pages/merchandise/277.php

http://wemove.org/

Can I say I hate Dystonia!! Yes it isn't me, just a part of me to say a little part is just how I cope with it. To be honest it was my whole life for such a long time. Total bed rest, twisted unbearable pain, no driving & stuck at home not knowing what to do with such limited hope of any way of knowing I would be some what normal again. I am talking about Dystonia again just to tell you a little more about the way things are! I live in pain everyday, some days I just am so tired I don't feel like moving, but my daughters give me a reason to want to be better. The song I posted a few days ago here on my blog is so true! The words really hit home for me!!! I am in a bandage on my left foot. Yes my dystonia pulled my muscles in my foot so much over & over that now I have tendinitis in my left foot. I know it sounds crazy that your body can do this all on its own. I have total numbs in my left foot all the time. My toes on that foot is always cuddled up. I also have a bad time with my feet wanting to turn in, so of course I am always making them walking straight which is just more stress on them. I know we serve a a great God & He has a plan in all of this. I really have learned a lot about myself through my dystonia. God has worked miracles so may of them I need to sit down & blog about those one time! Dystonia is hard to explain. If you would look at me you would think I am just one among you. Yet everyday of my life I am fighting an inward battle of pain & muscles being pulled. I do now have an amazing Dystonia doctor, that I know it was part of God's plan to have me go there. Please pray since I am at the year mark where it could get better or really a lot worse. Then I would have to start all over with the new meds., hospital stays, & maybe even the surgery on my brain. Through the pain & being totally at God's mercy at times I have pulled through. This new chapter in my dystonia part is scary, yet I know who holds the future. I also know they valley's are worth climbing the mountain tops. I do at times say to God, it would have been great if you would have healed me completely or even just take this burden I must bear away from me. Yet I would not wish this on anyone ever or even for a few months!! We can pray for a cure. There are over 300,000 of us in the world! Please pray for the many that are in bed all the time, the pain we suffer & the times are body twistes & turns out of control!!!

Holiness

2010-08-29T23:15:00.001-04:00

I have had such a blessed day!!!For starters what an amazing Saturday. My Ms Jasmine ran in her first ever track meet. With only three practices under her belt she ran cross country...2 miles, got sick during her run, but kept going. I cried tears of joy that she DID IT!! She came in 105 out of 115 girls..She has all heart & the love for it! That to me is great!!! I couldn't have been prouder then I was on Saturday it to me was like her being in 1st place. I love my Ms Sweet Jasmine and I prayed the whole time she ran, not saying this lifting me up, but praising God because He gave her the strength to finish the race. I called my dad while he was working & he was praying for her!!! God is AWESOME!! She is pumped for this up coming weeks practice & the race on Saturday!!!! Love her!!! My Ms Daizi was sick from Wed - Fri. missing school , went to the doctor she had fluid behind both ears. I tell you poor thing, she is always like that since birth!! She gets a head cold it goes straight to her ears. Yet by Saturday evening she was ready to cheer at her football team!!!
I praise the Lord, for bringing another friend in my life! I am blessed by all these prayers that have been going up being answered. I am forever humble to be in a church that is filled with the Holy Spirit! Two very important lessons I learned today walking away from church are......
#1...Being saved we come insured, the next step are we become the insurance agents, are job is to spread the love of Jesus to let them know of the insurance of life after death...HEAVEN..Holiness is updating our police over & over by having that personal relationship with the head of all of the insurance agencies..A fellow Sunday School christian shared this with us in class..I was so uplifted by his words. I shared that with my daughters and they in return understood Holiness even more.. Updates are important on all things PC anti-virus on our PC, GPS updates to know of new roads & many other updates. Yet I am telling you the most important is this to keep your relationship updated with a daily walk with God!!!!!
# 2 Love everyone......This is sometimes hard to do. I am the first to tell you that without the Love of Jesus in my heart I would not have that love toward certain people in my life!!
Pray for me to be faithful in praying one to for another & standing in the gap for others!!
To always have a prayerful heart!! We need to help lift each other up in the name of Jesus!!!

FOOTBALL HALL OF FAME!!!!!!!!!

2010-08-28T23:29:00.004-04:00

I love these two wonderful parents..Blessed that they are mine!!!!!

My dad was inducted into PSHS Football Hall of Fame at Fridays game & then at the dinner on Saturday. I will update my blog..this page again on Monday after I get all the info from dad all that he did for the team & other sport teams!! My dad has pins, bolts & screws holding his legs in place since he broke his bones so easily when he was younger. Dad has a passion for sports & couldn't play for this reason. Yet dad was involved in all sports, rode with all the teams & assisted the coaches often called training manager back then. He loved being apart of these sports, the only way that he could. I am a very proud daughter, watching him & mom walk the field while they were talking about all he had done with his life, brought tears to my eyes. This is a God fearing loving father, husband to my mom & a silly fun loving papaw to our children. My dad taught me all I know about sports, the love & respect of the game. I remember asking him what was going on when he would take me to the football, basketball & wrestling at PSHS when we had moved back to the area. He always would sit there & explain everything to me. I have that passion when I watch sports, because of my dad. Even now I enjoy watching sports with him. I have to say I really miss my papaw when it comes to boxing & I don't even watch or keep up with it since he has gone on to be with Jesus. This was something we would enjoy doing. paying for the matches at dads & watching them all together, again my dad would explain on the rules and really got me into boxing. I still smile about the fight that my man I was cheering for lost. My papaw said," Well he didn't deserve to win because he didn't finish him off the last two rounds." To be honest my papaw didn't really like my boxer..lol..I was so upset that my boxer loss..I just walked out and went home. I am such a girl I even cried, because it was unfair!! Really not just saying that. Back to the Hall of Fame!! DAD you Rock!! I really enjoyed the time we all had together this weekend. I must say the prayer at the dinner was an express of love for Jesus!! Mad Max said,"The one true best coach the real hall of fame was Jesus Christ and Heaven!!!" I totally agree with him on that!!! My dad....will post about it when i get all that info so com back...lol..morw will be on here!!!

TGIF

2010-08-27T00:02:00.001-04:00

* that God supplied needs this week that only He could have & did through prayer
* that my daughters love school
* that Ms Jasmine joined Track...running cross country...first meet tomorrow
* that Ms Daizi loves cheer leading
* that I was able to find a cheer leading uniform for Ms Daizi that fits (you rock Susan)
* that the sale prices on their tennis shoes was just in our budget..see God knows
* that my dad is going to be inducted into PSHS football Hall of Fame tonight (proud daughter)
* that my whole family will be together tonight, loves seeing everyone, the cousins are so great together
* that is all worked out for my daughter's to be there this weekend, prayer really works
* that I locked my keys in my car, thankful for At&t roadside assistance on my phone..YAY!!
* that I have some of the best friends in my life that listens, calls & is always there for me (you know who you are)
* that God knows tomorrow, so I don't have to worry about it
* that it isn't when the devil will attack, but when he does I am prayed up so God can help me
* that through God's grace I can love & care about people who isn't so kind toward me
* that this weekend ahead is going to be busy & I thank you God for His strength to help me everyday!!!

2010-08-27T00:00:00.002-04:00

Be sure to pause the radio player!!!! Enjoy..the words to this song it has made me cry more then once!! I am blessed with three beautiful daughters!! Yes two that live with me & one that lives with Jesus!! I think of all three of them all the time! I often wonder what it would be like to have all three with me, but I know that my oldest Claudia, even thou she was with me just for 5 weeks she is very much a apart of me!! Yet she is in the perfect place..HEAVEN!! Mo matter how much I miss her, I am happy she is there. One day I will see her when I meet my Maker! Yet until then I am blessed living with these two wonderful, God fearing, beautiful daughters of mine! The words to this song I sing from my heart!!!

Simply the Best

2010-08-26T00:01:00.001-04:00

I love to read!! Books are my passion!

There is nothing that needs to be said here!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I paint my nails everyday. I always have my toes painted. BTW: if you keep it refrigerated it will last longer!! My daughters paint their often & I love to help them!!

I love to grill all year round!!!!

Our Cosmo that keeps me company! We are blessed to have him in our lives!!

I enjoy my coffee every morning & through out my day. I am back to just drinking it black.

I love football season, watching games, going to them & watching my daughter cheer at them.

Knowing my Ms Jasmine is in Track, something she has wanted to be apart of since 5th grade!

Knowing my Ms Daiz is a cheerleader & joining gymnastics soon!!!

I am a netflick junkie..and Love to watch movies alone, with a friend & with my daughters!!

Where we've been

2010-08-25T00:02:00.001-04:00

Ms Daizi rocking her uniform in her bedroom before heading out to the game.......

Ms Daizi and I going to her first game......We won.....She had fun & did great!!!!

Ms Daizi heading off to 5th grade..............................................

Ms Jasmine heading off to 7th grade.........................

They already have put a week of school in. They both are loving school , like always. We went to the doctor for check ups on Tuesday. Perfect health YAY!!! Blessed that is for sure. Ms Jasmine is 5ft 6 1/2 inches tail & Ms Daizi is 4ft 7 1/2 inches tall. I must say I might be looking up to my daughters one day, but I know that they will never look down on me, so to speak. I really am blessed with two amazing daughters that love God . I have to tell y'all that even on the worse days they are bearable. Now if your a momma of pre-teen and a teenage daughter then you understand what i am saying, or if your a lady and remember this age!!!. I really do thank God for the way my daughters show me respect and say they are sorry when they make a mistake. I have never made them say they were sorry. I always told them to think about it & when they felt sorry and really met it then say it. It took all days some days, but when the words Sorry come out of their mouths you know it is real. Ms Daizi of course is a cheerleader this year & loves it. Ms Jasmine will be starting basketball soon & started cross country, track already her first meet is this Saturday. They run 3 miles!! I m proud of them both!! I am a praying momma, so would you please join me in prayer as my children start the new school year with all the peer pressures that some with school. Thank you!!

Simply the Best

2010-08-24T00:09:00.000-04:00

* Learning how to ride a bike by my dad when I was little
* Baking cookies with mom when I was little

* New school clothes when I was little

* Learning how to french braid my own hair when I was in the 4th grade

* Playing barbies for hours when I was little

* Playing outside till it was dark and then still had to be told to come inside

* Make believe was the best when I was little, I could be anything

* Having sleepovers & staying up really late

* Having my little sister crawl into bed with me, so she she could with me hmm til I moved out when I was 18 the best!!

* Having the late nights being with my sisters talking about boys..oh yea!!!

* First Kiss

* Being a preachers daughter I loved it & still do today

* Listening to the radio to go to sleep when I was little..it was a call in talk show

* Mowing the grass with my dad when I was little well after I turned 12

* Being a basketball player, cheerleader, volleyball player & track back when I was younger

* Thanking God for being raised in a God fearing home with wonderful loving Christian parents

* Mom our prayer warrior down on her knees many times when we were younger & still for us today!!!

If everything comes your way, then your in the wrong lane

2010-08-23T00:01:00.003-04:00

In life some times everything seems to be going smooth. We are going along life and then we seem to get hit with a mack truck, a lost of a love one, a job, an illness, a shock of something we just can't even wrap our heads around, losing a friend, and so man other things that happen in life. We live in a fallen world. I often think about my own life and all I have been through. I tell you I don't know how people do it without God. They turn to drugs, drinking, bars, or anything to keep them from facing life. I am thankful for the Holy Spirit that covers us with peace just like the trees are in the picture above. Crying out to God in the times of trouble, He is there. My dad always told me God has big enough shoulders to handle all our pain, to just lean in and cry it all out. There is a real Devil and he is out there everyday trying to keep your soul, so that you can join him one day in hell. My heart breaks for the dying world around me. My hearts prayer is what more can I do to build up the kingdom of God, not for my glory but for His!! I am overwhelmed at times with sadness of the pain I see even my own christian friends going through. I cry out to God and help stand in the gap for them. I know life is hard and the devil will do anything he can to keep us in that trap or to doubt God. I know this personally. Brothers and Sisters in Christ we need to be lifting each and everyone of one us up instead of judging & gossiping about each other!!! Who is your neighbor? I ask that same question to myself often. To remind myself what Jesus told us about who is our neighbor!! What we need to be doing for one another!! In the church there needs to be less gossip, more prayer, less who has what and more thanking God for what we have, doesn't matter the way they are dressed, but they way we welcome them into the family of God. We live in this hurt and dying world. The church is the one place that everyone needs to feel welcomed. It is our job to love them and God will take care of the rest. Loving people some times is hard. Yet God commanded us to. Not a maybe but a command. I have to say growing up as a preacher's daughter I saw my share of it in the Church's, yet I learned from it, God can turn hearts around if we just keep showing them the love of Jesus. I know this little christian girl, who deals with a bully everyday. Not the kind that pushes her around, but is hurtful with words. This little girl that is being bullied is praying and asking God to help her to do the right thing. Now is learning by being nice to this person, walking away, yet showing the love of Jesus things are improving. My heart rejoices, because this is something we adults can learn from. Yes I know some people we love but don't hang out with. I am talking about a christian love here. Yet we can still do our part in praying for them. God can deal with hearts and we can learn to walk away yet still show the love of Jesus! May God keep doing a work in my heart, so with His love there is less of me and more of HIM!!!

Looking in the Mirrow

2010-08-22T00:02:00.001-04:00

http://www.amazon.com/Woman-God-Can-Use-Jesus/dp/1568651554

This book listed above, if you are a women it is a must read. Not saying men can't read it, because maybe it would teach you something also. I believe God uses writings of many good Christian people to help learn more about Him. I love this book of course because it is about women in the Bible & there are Bible verse right there in the book. I am amazed at the things I am learning. The more I read God's Word the closer I feel to Him.

These are some things that God has laid on my heart to share with you my blog word. The women God used were not all perfect. They had a past that some people wouldn't even look at theses women today. I believe He did just that to show us that no matter where we have come from in life, that we can be used of God. It is our choice to do so! In a split second a choice we make can change the course of our lives forever. I have read about Leah in the book, You might know the story. I will be honest with you growing up in church I always felt sorry for Leah. A women who her husband didn't love. She was always compared to her beautiful sister. Then there is Rehab a prostitute that changed the course of many things. She saved God's people, was saved herself. She also is part of the line of Jesus being born. I know that through God's grace we all can be saved.

We all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God!! Romans 3:23

I am am learning to let go of my past and turn it all over to Jesus! The Holy Spirit is moving through out my heart daily. In all my life I have never longed for more of God then I am now. It isn't because I am going through any other rough battle that I haven't faced in the past, it isn't because I am a single women and mom, it is because God has been dealing with my heart and soul everyday. I am open to His calling. I want Holiness. I want others to see Jesus when they see me and not me.

I am going to share this in closing. We women, I say that because I am one often look at other women and think wow they have it all together. I go out shopping and see beautiful women, married women laughing with their husbands, families complete (dad mom & children), some have huge houses, drives the newest cars, have the best clothes on, them seem to have it all together, but the grass always looks greener on the other side. The older I have become I now see & know that this isn't always the case. Some of these women are unhappy with the way they look, are not saved, nothing is ever enough, cheating or being cheated on, their homes may be huge, but God is not the head of them they may drive the best cars but their children suffer because they are never there. I am not cutting anyone down or don't have anyone in mind. These are words the are just spilling out of me from God. I can't even type fasted enough to be honest. We live in a fallen world ladies. We must love ourselves for the way God created us. We must desire Him above all worldly things. We must put him in charge of our homes. We must give our children over to Him. We must pray everyday & have that personal relationship with Him!!

I am not saying women can't work. I did for years and worked many hours a week sometimes 70 or more to provide for my daughters. Some of us don't have the choice but to work. I am not judging anyone, please know this. I am just saying no matter what you do or the choices you make be sure God is the one you are letting control them.

God is good!! He will meet your need no matter where you are at in your life. He will take you as you are and show you want needs to be changed. We have a loving Father that loves us, but He also will not be able to save us from the fiery pits of hell if we choice to ignore Him!!! Please where ever you are at in your life know that God can use you!!! I pray everyday that God will be in control of all my choices and I can tell you I have never been more happier in my life. Yes my life isn't perfect, I have trials, my family is under attack even now, I have been going through some of the toughest battles I have ever faced in a long long time, and yet I am learning to Praise Him even in the good and the bad. There is a peace that comes with handing everything over to God!! Ever if you want to know more about Jesus, or have someone pray with you please email me at mojo969700@yahoo.com I don't judge, because I have past too. I am saved by His grace!! I now what God has brought me from and keeping me from. I thank Him daily for HIS Grace!!!

Where I have been......

2010-08-21T02:27:00.004-04:00

God Can Heal a Broken Heart...................................
When I was looking for images to put on my blog this one was there & the title was "God can heal a broken Heart!" How fitting for what has been on my heart these past few weeks. I know that my past isn't perfect but it is covered by the Blood of Jesus!!! Yes I am a firm believer to still say THE BLOOD!!!
I will start out by saying the place I am at in my life isn't what I dreamed of as a little girl. We all grew up dreaming of what we would be or what we would do and etc. I am at a place in my life that I am totally 100% happy that I am washed in His Blood, saved by grace & full heartily seeking Holiness daily. I want more of God in my life!!!!
Here is a brief update of life. If you have read my blog then you will know most of this. I married my High School Sweetheart at the age of 18. We had three beautiful daughters. He left us in 2001. After eight years of marriage it was over. I then dated a great friend of mine & we married in 2003. Our marriage was amazing, worked in the church side by side & it was a good marriage. I had a great step son. I got a call one day while he was in college saying he wasn't coming home ever again. After four years of marriage it was over. I went on a blind date with a christian man a few years later. We dated for 4 months I introduced him to my daughters they liked him right away. We were engaged to be married. I am glad that I had been praying, because things were not adding up. I asked a few hard questions and our engagement was called off. God spared my daughters and I from that marriage for sure.
I said all of that to say this I know that those were not my plans at all. I wanted my marriage life and staying together forever. I can't control what others do. I know that for sure. We girl's are good. We have a strong relationship & God is head of our home. I know what the Bible speaks on divorce trust me the devil has let me have it for years now over it. I will be so open and honest to say that I felt that I had no right to even be a christian for sometime in my life after my 2nd husband left. I read the Bible over and over and thought because of my two divorces I am bound for hell so why try. I have cried over this many many many of times. I don't know all the answers. I even was just playing church, taking my daughters, a smile on my face, but down deep I knew if God would have came back then I wouldn't not have made it to heaven. I wasn't living a christian life. No I wasn't drinking partying or so forth, but I had given up on even trying.
God gave me the story of the women at the well the summer before my second husband left. I was in charge of VBS & I acted the story out of the women at the well. I never knew how powerful that story would be in my healing and bringing me back to God. I thought if God could use her to save a whole town. She had been married 5 times and living with a man without even being divorced from her 5th one. Yet God saved her & used her to witness to others. I know they don't tell the rest of her story. Did she marry the man she was living with? I don't know.
I do know just the other day I found peace with my divorces to be honest. God showed me verses just the other day. I wish I had my Bible right here, but I will share them another time.
This post is about How God is working in my life!! No matter your past God loves you & will forgive you of all your sins. You just have to let Him in your heart!! Pray daily, read His Word and always asking for God's help in everything. I don't know my future. I wonder at times if God's plan for me includes a wonderful God fearing man one day. Trust me I ask Him a lot? I have never gotten a clear cut answer, because I am not sure if it is my desire or Him talking. I know that when God speaks to me about it then I will listen. I know my dad tells me, he prayers that God will send a wonderful Godly man one day to marry me.
I know that the Christian book I am reading about Godly women it talks about the way God created us. Adam wasn't satisfied with anything God created until He created EVE! God created us to have the desire for a Godly christian companionship & a marriage pleasing to Him. I have even prayed that if it is God's will for me not to marry ever again then to take the desire out of my heart. I have to tell you this up front and honest. That there are days I say I am having a real girl day..lol..I cry out to God about this feeling of not having a Godly Christian husband in my life. Then most days I am all good. I am busy with life and don't even think about it. Those girly days as I call them are long and hard ones. I pray a lot more, because I want God's will in my life not my own.
I know this is a long blog and a very open honest one. I just felt the need to write it & maybe there are others that are in the same place I am in. The devil uses your past to keep you down. I am telling you through prayer & daily giving your burdens to God you can grow stronger. When you are weak God will make you strong & when you are Strong God is the one helping you stay that way. God loves you right where you are. You don't have to clean up first to meet Him. He will do that for you! He is just waiting for you to come into His loving arms. I am thankful everyday that I was on His mind while He was on that CROSS!!!!

TGIF

2010-08-20T16:40:00.003-04:00

* for always knowing what we need
* for talking to me through your Word
* for caring for us
* for loving me just as I am
* for the cool evenings
* for knowing all things & helping me to wait on you
* for showing me the things I need to improve in my christian walk
* for always being there for me
* for your hand of protection on my family
* for helping my daughters through their first week of school
* for always listening to me, when I don't understand, cry out in pain, broken hearted, rejoicing and ect.
* for being head of our home
* for the beauty all around us
* for helping me on my dystonia days
* for blessing me with wonderful friends in my life
* for my wonderful daughters that have a heart for you
* for always going before us in all things
* for having a mother that taught us that a daily walk with You is how to put on the whole armor of God
* for helping me learn your Word & sending the Holy Spirit to help me in the battles of life

Thinking Thursday

2010-08-19T01:01:00.002-04:00

* that fall is my favorite time of year

* that I am looking forward to football games & watching Ms Daizi cheer

* that my favorite part of my day is hearing all about my daughters day when they get home from school

* that I remember this age (Middle School) boys :-)..Ms Jasmine makes me smile

* that I am blessed that my daughters & I really talk about everything

* that I love to laugh, my daughters says, "They laugh when they hear me laughing."

* that I know God heals, I have seen it with my own eyes & it happened to me. (if you want to hear my story email me mojo969700@yahoo.com)

* that where is my faith in God sometimes?

* that I love my crazy jewelry

* that I google words when the spelling looks crazy even after I do spell check

* that I love long walks down my country road :-) (I know you were thinking walks on the beach)

* that I love living where we live

* that I am a country girl at heart and always has been

* that I have no regrets in life, because I am where I am at today because of my choices

* that God can take what someone may mean for evil and turn it into something beautiful!!

* that I am only has strong as I am, by allowing God to dwell with in me

* that I want to live my life pleasing to God

* that I really don't like nights when I can't sleep grrrr Dystonia!!!!

* that if I get on eBay, I must make sure I stay checked into God, since He is in control of my money! If not wow I can get out of hand on those deals!! :-)

* that I love how I just think random thoughts!!

Quiet..........

2010-08-18T02:23:00.003-04:00

There are times in my life I am just quiet! If you really know me, yes that might just be a shock to you. The older I get the more I listen. I will sit or stand there thinking I really just don't have anything to say, what would I really have to add, and even what I have to say just isn't as an exciting as what is going on in their lives.

I found my house to quiet now that my daughters are back in school. Today I had the TV on & K-Love playing just so there was noise. I am one of those mommas that love hearing the laughter & noise of my daughters playing. I don't care for screaming, but every thing else is all good.

I think a lot more about life it self then I use, too. Where will I be in 5 years? My daughters will be in college in 8 years. What is God's purpose for my life? Where do I go from here? Is this all I can do? Will marriage ever be in my future? Will trusting ever be something I will over come?

I will be very honest here...I find myself just staying at home when my daughters are in school, then getting more involved in life itself. maybe that sounds strange. I really don't know how else to explain it. I want to call my friends more, join the gym, take some classes, * learn how to back cakes, yet everyday i will find a reason not too. I know this is an area in my life that I hand over to God daily to help me over come this. Ever since I have had Dystonia I became this way. Before I talked to every one & all the time. I would always be involved in something, church, school or out doing things with friends.

When Dystonia hit I was stuck in bed for so long and I wasn't able to drive. It became my way of life. Now when it comes to being momma no question I am ready & excited about doing what I can for them. Yet I have trouble coming back out of my shell now. Yes I have improved a great deal with the help of the Lord.

I know that I am being quiet and waiting on God in some areas of my life, which is a good thing. I enjoy country living because it is quiet, but just the sounds of nature. I enjoy taking our dog out in the late evening, because all the stars in the sky, the quiet around me, listening to nature, d seeing the real beauty of God all around.

Simply the Best

2010-08-17T08:10:00.002-04:00

* Drinking my coffee, while I talk to my Ms Jasmine getting ready for school.

* Flat ironing her hair. (love being able to still do these things for them)

* Listening to the excitement in her voice about going back to school

* Taking pictures, yes this momma still does that.

* I am a morning person, so I love that we are back to getting up early every morning.

* The excitement in the house last night as they picked out their new school outfit to wear.

* Knowing how God helped me find great deals on all their clothes this summer.

* The tears I cried as Ms Jasmine got on the bus & headed off to Middle School

* Having Cosmo (our new dog) wake up my Ms Daizi (she isn't a morning person)

* Talking to her once she was all ready for school (I know my girls & how it works in the mornings)

* Loved helping them sort out what school supplies they turned into their teacher & the ones that went into their book bags. (we did this on Monday)

* More first day back pictures.

* Tears as my Ms Daizi got on the bus, knowing this year she is in school without her big sister.

* THE HOUSE IS TO QUIET!!!!!

If everything comes your way, then your in the wrong lane

2010-08-16T11:58:00.003-04:00

Sometimes I feel like this.....When will it stop? There always seems to be another battle or the same battle going on & on. I know that life is tough & with God's help we can make it through. I have learned a lot through some of my toughest battles. Yet, in my heart I would like some peaceful days. I would like to say wow that battle is over & done with. yet Satan is real and we live in a fallen world. I know that I never want to get to a place in my life that I don't joy in something everyday. My daughters and I play a game at bedtime every night (I know I have said this before in my blog), but it goes like this....We each go around and tells of our favorite part of the day...Then ever night we take turns being it, we say something that we love about our self & then we each tell that person something we love about them. It helps us to reflect on our day, no matter how rough it might have been & find something great in it. We also learn to love one another by uplifting them and finding things in our own lives that we love about our self. I know being a girl that life is hard growing up in today's world even more so then back in the days when I was young. i want my daughters to love themselves the way God made them. To reflect that we all are different but special in the eyes of our Maker. I know I went off the subject there a little, but I said all of that to say this....

No matter how rough our day is we are blessed, because of many things...

1. we live in the USA

2. we have a home that is safe & God is the head of our home

3. we are blessed with many things that God provides for us

4. we love God with all our hearts

5. we read the Bible everyday to have that personal relationship with Him

6. we learn Bible verses together

7 we pray together often through our day

I could go on & on. Yet we still find ourselves in the mist of the battle field everyday! My prayer is God please help me put on your Full Armor, so when life hits then we are ready together. Prayer & having a personal relationship with God is what helps me to over come everyday. I am not perfect, but with God's help we can be more then conquers.

Words of Wisdom

2010-08-15T05:36:00.003-04:00

http://kelseysutherlin.blogspot.com/
Thank you for your blog! I have a love of reading blogs. This is a blog I ran across some time ago! She is so encouraging to me. Please check out her blog. Below is from her Aug 6th post. I just felt I needed to share the verses, quotes and words of wisdom to my blogger. I love all of these and thank you Kels for sharing your thoughts on your blog. These were so encouraging to me & it just wanted I needed to here................
and here are verses... quotes... words... they are very encouraging:
Ralph Waldo Emerson:
"to laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and to endure the betrayal of false friends. to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. this is to have succeeded."
Mother Teresa:
"people are often unreasonable and self-centered. forgive them anyway.
if you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. be kind anyway.
if you are honest, people may cheat you. be honest anyway.
if you find happiness, people may be jealous. be happy anyway.
the good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. do good anyway.
give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. give your best anyway.
for you see, in the end, it is between you and God. it was never between you and them anyway."
Abraham Lincoln:
"people are just as happy as they make up their minds to be."
Henri Nouwen:
"when we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. the friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares."
Audrey Hepburn:
"for attractive lips, speak words of kindness. for lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. for a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. for beautiful hair, let a child run their fingers through once a day. for poise, walk with the knowledge that you will never walk alone. people, more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed. remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. as you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself and the other for helping others."
Gilda Radner:
"i wanted a perfect ending. now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. delicious ambiguity."
Mahatma Gandhi:
"prayer is not asking. it is a longing of the soul. it is daily admission of one's weakness. it is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart."
1 peter 5:5-7
"when God, who is the best shepherd of all, comes out in the open with his rule, he'll see that you've done it right and commend you lavishly. and you who are younger must follow your leaders. but all of you, leaders and followers alike, are to be down to earth with each other, for -
God has had it with the proud.
but takes delight in just plain people.
so be content with who you are, and don't put on airs. God's strong hand is on you; he'll promote you at the right time. live carefree before God; he is most careful with you."
1 peter 2:20-22
"this is the kind of life you've been invited into, the kind of life Christ lived. He suffered everything that came his way so you would know that it could be done, and also know how to do it, step-by-step.
He never did one thing wrong,
not once said anything amiss.
they called him every name in the book and he said nothing back. he suffered in silence, content to let God set things right. he used his servant body to carry our sins to the cross so we could be rid of sin, free to live the right way. his wounds became your healing. you were lost sheep with no idea who you were or where you were going. now you're named and kept for good by the shepherd of your souls."
Colossians 3:12-14
"so, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. forgive as quickly and completely as the master forgave you. and regardless of what else you put on, wear love. it's your basic, all-purpose garment. never be without it."
Mark Twain:
"twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. so throw off the bowlines. sail away from the safe harbor. catch the trade winds in your sails. explore. dream. discover."

He has the whole world in His Hands!!!

2010-08-14T08:15:00.003-04:00

I know that I am so unworthy of His love!! I am thankful that I was on His mind while He was on the CROSS!!! His love & grace is something that I never want to take for grant. I know that there are times that I have of late felt like my words & devotion time has felt empty. I know it just another way for Satan to win & take away my joy. I want to draw closer to God everyday. I have seen people and things changing for the better, because of prayer. (Thank you to all my prayer partners) God please change my heart to love more, to be understanding, to stand in the gap where needed for people, to love people even when they don't love back, to give you more praise, and to do your will at all times. I am nothing without your love and grace. Your power and strength is very uplifting. God you are the King of Kings, Lord of Lords, Master of everything and it is true we either serve you or Satan. I need you more!!! God work in my heart to turn it upside down and inside out. Please show me everything that needs changed.
The love of God is amazing. He loves us just the way we are and then He cleans us up when we give our lives over to Him! Many people blame God for things that happen in their life. Yet it is Sin that has us hurting in this world. Since we all have sinned, then we all must live in this fallen world till Jesus returns. My hearts desire to what Holiness!!! God is showing me in my heart what parts I need to change.
I know that this post is all over the place this morning. It is just thoughts going through my mind. Without God I am not able to do anything. Yet with His love and grace I am able to grow in Him daily!! God please just show me what you want me to do with my life in all areas.

TGIF

2010-08-13T22:14:00.011-04:00

God working it all out that Ms Jasmine was seeing the best Orthodontist around!!! Yes it was a hour 1/2 drive, but well worth it!!! We made each trip a fun & exciting time. Over the last 2 years & 1/2 we had the most amazing talks on our road trips. I do thank God for our relationship as mother/daughter. We do have about seven more trips to make over the next two years together up there...http://medicalcenter.osu.edu/patientcare/healthcare_services/dental_care/Pages/index.aspx this is where we have been going!!! She loves to joke about going to OSU, when she is a die hard WVU FAN!!! She would always wear her WV clothes up there. She also teased me about taking pictures of her over the years if there was anything OSU in it!!! I thank God for His hand of protection on us on our trips. Always providing the need for gas or anything else we needed over the years. The last few months we were there every two weeks. I am thankful to my wonderful friends that would keep Ms Daizi so she didn't have to make the trip! To my wonderful amazing dad that took time off from work, when my neck was broken to take Ms Jasmine to her appointments!!! Her orthodontist & staff that makes us feel like family!! I can't even thank God enough how He worked it all out for us!!! Now just waiting for Ms Daizi's two teeth to come in and then braces on her teeth next!!! God is so good & He always provides all our needs!!!

My SWEET Ms Jasmine's Braces off!!!! Just two years of retainers & she is done YAY!!!

We were talking today about missing our road trips together, when it is all over!!

Ms Jasmine's last day of braces, 5 days before 7th grade!!!! She has grown up so much!!!!

Ms Jasmine's braces in 6th grade!!!! Our road trips were always a time of girl talking!!!

Ms Jasmine's braces in 5th grade...We had many fun road trips by now!!!

Ms Jasmine's first day with her braces on in 4th grade ..Our third road trip!!!!!

Thinking Thursday

2010-08-12T00:03:00.004-04:00

* What would it be like to live everyday pain free

* What would it be like to not take so many pills a day

* What would it be like to be the way I was before 2004

* What would it be like to have more good days then bad days

* What would it be like for people to really understand what I go through everyday

* What would it be like to be able to know that things won't get worse

* What would it be like to be able to go back to work

* What would it be like to not to have to explain what Dystonia is all the time
* What would it be like not to go totally numb some where on my body every day

* What would it be like to sleep a full night

* What would it be like to be in a Dystonia support group

I am who I am. I am not Dystonia. It is a part of me yes & will be for the rest of my life. I count my many blessings of so many answered prayers. My legs were all turned in and I could hardly walk. God healed me of that in a Church Camp meeting service. I don't complain, because I thank God everyday that I am able to do what I can do with Dystonia. There are so many others out there worse off then myself. I encourage you to check out the two web site's listed http://www.dystonia-foundation.org/
http://www.wemove.org/dys/dys.html

There are over 300,000 of us out there in the world. It has been known about since 1975. I pray for a cure. Until then I am thankful for the medications that I take to keep my spells under control & the pain down to where it is livable. Just been doing a lot of thinking about my future, my place in this world, & what does God have planned for me once my children are off to college. Till then I take a day at a time & thank God for his grace, love & mercy toward me!!!

Where we've been

2010-08-11T01:43:00.000-04:00

Ice Skating party...................................................

Knee Deep Snow..................................................

Has we reflect over this past year so far God has been so good to us. The many wonderful things we have been able to enjoy, because God always provides!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

* Living with my wonderful parents till March (taking care of us while my neck was broken)

* Snow days (watching the girl's play in the snow with their papaw & mamaw)

* Disney on Ice

* Road trips for braces (papaw covered for me while my neck was broken)

* Ms Jasmine's & Jacob's basketball games (mamaw took us, because my neck was broken)

* Ice Skating party

* Other Birthday party's

* Tennessee & Florida....(the beach)

* School Functions

* New Church

* Easter Egg Hunt

* Christian Concerts

* 3D movies

* Summer time Fun...................

* Ms Jasmine white water rafting twice

* Ms Jasmine Jr High Summersville Nazarene Church Camp

* Ms Daizi Jr Summerville Nazarene Church Camp

* Ms Daizi first massage

* VBS'

* The Wilds

* Family Fun Day at church

* The Creation Museum

* Biker Sunday...awesome time...saw True Witness live!!!!

* Many sleepovers, slumber party's & play dates

* Ms Jasmine go cart riding with her friend

* Ms Daizi horse back riding with her friend

* Train Ride

* Went swimming so many times, at friends, with friends, & play dates

* Family Reunion

* Out of town & watched my sister's children for 4 days

* Ms Daizi started cheer leading practice

* Family Camp

Our summer time is wrapping up. This week we are getting back in our sleep schedule, because school starts next Tuesday! We are blessed how God has provided for us to enjoy all theses amazing things & so much more this far in 2010!!God is so good to us! I count my Blessings everyday!!!

Simply the Best

2010-08-10T00:38:00.000-04:00

* Walking hand in hand with my Ms Daizi

* Spending that time talking to my Ms Jasmine

* Being mom even when I have to tell them over and over to do something

* The times when I pray, because I don't know how to handle a situation that arises

* Peace and patience when I need it the most

* Saying I am sorry to my daughter's when I am having a bad day

* Laughter (I know I put this so often, but I love it when our home is filled with it, which is so often(

* Godly friends I can call on to prayer with me

* Hearing I love you mommy for no reason, but they just walk up and tell me

* The way my daughters are learning to work out their disagreements on their own

* Learning to lean more on Jesus

* God's healing touch, so that I can walk straight now, even with my Dystonia

It is the everyday life & simple things that I am so thankful for!! The great big ones are wonderful also!! I just always want to reflect on the simple things every week and have a thankful heart for the simple things in life!!!

If everything comes your way, then your in the wrong lane

2010-08-09T00:12:00.002-04:00

I still am amazed at the wonderful love, grace, mercy and answered prayers that has been taking place in our lives. I sell God short so many times. I really have been soul searching & giving it all to Jesus. I am thankful for the things He is pointing out in my life!! I have weakness that Satan loves to prey on, through the love & help of God I am learning to flee from evil. I want that holiness I have heard about all my life, my dad has lived & preached on to us, our new preacher's preaches on holiness, our Sunday School lessons, Church Camp touched on this many times this past week. I want to reach out, lay flat on my face before God & dye out to self daily. I don't want anything to keep me from being, going and witnessing for God. I know Satan is real, he knows my weaknesses & loves to push the right buttons so to speak to have that temptation there front and center. Through God's help I am learning and able to resist the sinful nature and turn toward God. This past week our morning Church Camp speaker gave us a prayer journal. I am loving it. It teaches us what to really pray about, for and how. I noticed that there was even a place to put Bible verses to learn, to help fight the devil off in those weak times and many others. The Word of God is our GPS and the more I learn and study God's Word the stronger my spirit gets.

I am telling you God is able to keep us from sinning. I am learning to talk about the good in life rather the bad things that we are facing. My days are brighter and so much better. When I have thoughts about certain things I pray and God renews my strength. I want more and more of God. I never want to reach the place in my life that where I am at in my walk with God is enough. I don't want to miss heaven. I want to see my other two daughters there & so many other people in my life. I have stated in my past blogs even that I am praying for God's touch in the lives of those you are angry, upset and hurtful even toward me. What a difference it would make if God was to turn their lives upside down, inside out and on fire for Him!! Our God loves us just as we are and He is the one washing me inside and out!!! If you are reading my blog and you are not saved. please email me at mojo969700@yahoo.com, because I would love to share the good news of his great love to you!! God is enough!!!!

HOME SWEET HOME!!!!!!

2010-08-08T21:59:00.004-04:00

Awwww how we missed our man Cosmo while we were away at Church Camp!!!
My parents dog sat for us & he missed us like crazy they said!!!

Camp was AWESOME!! We are home!! I love going away, but there just is something about being back home. The truck is all unloaded!! YAY!! The washing is almost done, my daughters played with Cosmo while I cleaned the house & put everything away. I think it is strange how a house gets dirty while you are gone...HAHA!! Really I cleaned our house before we left. I am so tired!!! I will have to say this one is short & sweet!! Great fellowship, Great food, Awesome Fun & Wonderful as always seeing family & friends!!

Church Camp

2010-08-07T23:03:00.002-04:00

This is where we have been all week! I grew up here on this camp ground!! I went here as a baby till I was 18 years old. Three years ago my daughter's & I came back for a visit and we now come here for the week of camp. I love it here, because it brings back such amazing memories of, great friends, fun times, wonderful shouting services, children camps, youth camps, family camps, and working in different camps as I grew older. We loved this place growing up. I am thankful for all of the people over the years & Church's that has kept this camp up & running. My daughters love it here, too. They have the same fun & exciting time as I did growing up here. We had the honor of spending time with my sister Lisa & her family. Chris my brother-in-law, Lisa' husband, they pastor a inter-city church in West Virginia. This their Church Camp! Thank you God for me being born, into my family that raised us in church, church camps, VBS', quiz's, youth gatherings, Christian lock-ins & so many other amazing Christian impacts in our lives. http://www.wearegrace.org/camppage.html

TGIF

2010-08-06T07:51:00.001-04:00

Thankful for my family!!!.........................................................

Thankful for God fearing parents............................................

Blessed with a God fearing, prayer warrior Momma!!!!!!!!!!............................................

Blessed with a God fearing Dad that I can call anytime day or night & he prays with me!!.....

Thinking Thursday

2010-08-05T09:36:00.001-04:00

When the Enemy Strikes

http://www.christianbook.com/when-the-enemy-strikes/charles-stanley/9780785287889/pd/87880

I know that I have spoken of this book before, but I am at a place in the book where I just want to pass along some questions the author asks........

Pages 146-153..he is talking about the Breast Plate of Rightousness...Just think about these questions. I know I am still going back over them myself!!!!

* Do you exhale vehement hate or profound love?

* Do you exhale cynicism and sarcasm or appreciation and praise?

* Do you exhale an attitude of bitterness or of grateful?

* Do you exhale anger and pain or the healing balm and kindness?

* Do you exhale revenge or mercy?

* Do you exhale a sething silence or a vulnerable willingness to reach out to others?

I want to work on these in my life....

These are some really good questions to think about!!!!

Where we've been

2010-08-04T00:17:00.000-04:00

In the early part of July we had the honor of spending four days with my sister's children. Ms Daizi was only with us for the first day 1/2 then we met up with close church friends that took her to Jr Church camp. Ms Jasmine & I had so much fun with these two wonderful children. We played Hide & Go Seek, colored, read books, watched movies, went to a movie, went shopping, played in the pool, and just had a great four days of fun & laughter. This is something we have done for a few years now. We look forward to this time & love it, so much. The above picture of course is when we went to Chucky Cheese's, http://www.chuckecheese.com/ for an evening!! They love to have their cousin Ms Jasmine do everything with them. I love being Aunt for this special time. I at times miss my daughters being this young age, so the time I spend with them reminds me of those days. I love them, so much!!! They are a true blessing from God. If you are a blog junkie like me, then check out my sister's blog, http://shinnsstew.blogspot.com/ , you will learn how God answered prayer & these two angel's are a special gift from God.

Simply the Best

2010-08-03T00:08:00.000-04:00

* Sunshine on my face

* The smell outside after a rain storm

* Clouds and finding shaped in them

* Laughing

* Silly Bands

* Listening to my daughters talk among themselves

* Movie days

* Coffee in the mornings

* Hot Tea at bedtime

* Walking the High School Track

* Listening to my friends

* Learning more about God

If everything comes your way, then your in the wrong lane

2010-08-02T08:13:00.006-04:00

PRAISE'S!!!!!!
I want to share with you some amazing things God is doing!!
I am learning to give everything over to God. There are parts of my life that I have always felt that I still needed to control.
Fiances......My finances has been a struggle with my since I moved out from my parents house at the age of 18. I felt if I didn't have a certain amount of money in the bank for a back up plan then wow I stressed about it. Over the years I have seen God work miracles & miracles in my life in the finances department. He answered prayers right down to the penny that we needed, when I was going through my Dystonia stage & didn't have any income at all. I have given God complete control of my check book, so to speak. I have been listening to His small voice about every financial choice I make. WOW!!! The first time in years I am worry free. I will be honest I still worry at times, struggle with it, but daily I give that area to God. I am thanking & praising Him for blessing us so much!!
Forgiveness......that is one that I thought I had under control. yes I would say I am sorry or ask for forgiveness. Yet in my life I didn't always forgiven when I should. I am learning that forgiving is also letting go!!! Satan loves to bring up all that stuff people has said, done & so forth. To really work on your spirit to bring you down, look at that person different or even talk about them. I am letting go of the hurt, if if they don't ask for forgiveness I want to give it to them (only with God's help can I do this). I am praising God for showing me this area in my life, because there is a renewing of Joy in my soul once again!!!
Enemies......I want to love them through the cross. I have watched my dad & mom over the years as their live in the ministry, forgive people in our lives that was so hurtful. I am not all really certain why people think preachers are ones to fight against. Being raised as a preacher's daughter I saw things in the church that was wow to say the least shocking at times. The ones that was christian people would sometimes be so hurtful toward us. I know we all are not perfect, but I see that preacher families are under attack all the time. Yet my parents taught us to forgive & that there would always be people like that in every area of your life. That we couldn't let what they said or did keep us from loving them or even walk away from God. I now see that Satan can even use people of God to be hurtful at times. The people would do, say & be so hurtful, yet my parents forgave. Sometimes it is hard. The devil loves for you to hold on to that anger. It only hurts you. My prayer is with the help of our God I will be an example to these people in my life. I pray for them. My desire is that I do my part with the help of the Lord to live for Him in front of them. I know enemies is a strong word. yet I don't know how else to describe people in my life that is always saying hurtful words, cutting me down, hurting my daughters or saying things to cut me down to others. I love them through the cross. Yes I pray daily for this love & though out my day. God is helping me in this area & I PRAISE HIM!!!!
Prayer & Devotion......I have always talked to God daily. In the car, getting ready, through out my day & my daughters have even walked in a room where I was saw me crying & asked if everything was ok, I say I am praying. I am learning to really set time for God daily. I do this nightly with my daughters. Yet I would just keep putting off my alone time with God. I would do it some days, but not everyday. I would run out of time, so to speak. I have asked God to help me in this area. PRAISE GOD HE IS!!!! I wake up now before my daughters, or if they are awake at the same time, I still go into my room & spend that time with God. I of course make sure that they don't need anything. I even have made a promise to God that He gets my time before the computer. I mean it that is a struggle, because the devil will say,"Aw now just check face book, you listen to Christian music while you are on there, & you even blog," I will catch myself with coffee in hand heading to the computer. I stop and listen to that still small voice of God. I tell you my day goes smoother, not perfect, but armed to face what lays ahead.
I am not bragging. I am not perfect at all!! I am just praising God for His power to help me in these areas of my Life. I still have the same battles that lay ahead right now, but my attitude toward them are changing. I am doing all I can to find good in everything with the help of the Lord. My blog would be so long if I listed in detail all God has done for us just in these past two weeks.
I am telling you prayer works. Time alone with God helps you face your day better. Praising God & not always asking for things even makes my day brighter. Thanking God for his blessings instead of focusing on the negative has been so uplifting. Satan wants you to look at the bad in life, yet God wants us to love him, find joy everyday..His Blessings are new every morning. We just need to ask!!

Praising God!!!!

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Lamentations 3:22 & 23

Because of the LORD'S great love we are not comsumed, because His compassions never fail.

They are new every morning, great is your faithfulness

Good vs Evil

2010-07-31T22:31:00.003-04:00

http://www.amazon.com/When-Enemy-Strikes-Workbook-ebook/dp/B000SH2BKM

This book is changing my life!!!

Lisa, http://shinnsstew.blogspot.com/ ,my sister bought me this book last month. I read and re-read it. I tell you that if you love to read and also want to learn more about God this book is for you!!! Words can't even express to you the great impact this book has been toward changing my view toward life, people & even myself.

We are in a war against evil!! I thank God for an amazing Christian sister, who was lead by God to buy me this book. I am learning to love God more, my daughters, myself and even my enemies. There are parts of this book that has opened my eyes to things I never even thought about before. I want more of God, through this book and my Sunday School class I am learning how to let go and let God have complete control over my life. I want Holiness!!! I believe that with God all things are possible. Holiness is something we all should desire. Please check this book out!! I pray that God speaks to you through this book as God is speaking to me.

TGIF

2010-07-30T00:20:00.002-04:00

* for the FUN time with my girl's this week
* for the laughter of silly things among us girl's
* for God sending just enough
* for tears of joy because of answered prayers
* for listening to that still small voice of God
* for really listening to my daughters this week
* for taking time to spend just with them
* for having great friends
* for an amazing church family
* for being blessed with daughter's
* for the desire my Ms Jasmine had to work in a VBS this past week
* for the past 2 1/2 years of protection on the road traveling for Ms Jasmine's braces appointments
* for God loving me
* for am Amazing week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thinking Thursday

2010-07-29T03:24:00.003-04:00

* what a great week we have had
* that we had a wonderful birthday party for Ms Daizi with friends & family
* that walking the football filed track with Ms Jasmine is great
* that watching Ms Daizi during cheer leading practice warms my heart
* that we have more fun filled sleep over (my daughters have great friends)
* that is was awesome & fun watching my niece & nephew on Tuesday
* that God is good, He knows just what we need at the right time
* that I have great friends (Sherry & Leon) that we laugh & have a Fun time together
* that those secret talks with my daughters about hmmmm is wonderful
* that laughing really laughing a lot for the first time in a long time is awesome
* that I am sleeping better without more medicine
* that blogging again makes me smile inside
* that God has a plan for my life & I am excited living it everyday

Where they've been

2010-07-28T02:49:00.003-04:00

Jr Church Camp..................................................................

Jr High Church Camp................................................................
Both of my daughters went away to church camp and LOVED it!! They called a few times (which time they were having fun), not everyday. I missed hem both when they were gone. It was the longest ever that I had gone without seeing them in my life. I am so thankful for all God did to provide for both of my daughters to be able to attend church camp. They both came back talking non stop about all the fun, joy & the spirit of God there on the camp ground. It still warms my heart that this is something they are already looking forward to next year. I grew up on our church camp ground. As long as I remember we went to all three camps, Youth Camp, Children's Camp & Family camp. Either my parents worked in them, we went because we were old enough, or we worked in them our self. Church camp was a huge impacted on my life. It was something we thought all kids grew up doing. I have taken my children to the Ohio church camp, since they were little. It was the one that our church we use to go to was a apart of. This now will be our third year going back to my old church camp for Family Camp. I love that my daughters are enjoying them selves on the Church Camp ground that I ran around on. I also thank God for all the people who keep that camp up and running. Church Camp is a life changing experience. You are around other church people your age, you have fun, and the services are a renewing to your soul. I praise god for sending us to Broadway Nazarene it is the church I know that God wants us to be apart of. I know I have stated this in past blogs, but the church people and the preaching has been just what we all have needed. Thank you God for God fearing parents who took me to church, camps, & prayed with me and for me all my life. Thank you God for being king of our home and all three of our lives. Thank you God for loving us that you sent your Son to die for us. My desire is that my daughters make it to heaven. With God's help and through His power I want to be sure that my daughters see Jesus living in me. Only with the help of the Holy Spirit will that be possible.

Church Camps are the Best!! May my daughters and myself always have the desire to go every summer.........

Past & Present :-)

2010-07-28T01:05:00.000-04:00

My Ms Jasmine looks like me now.............

My Ms Daizi looks like me when I was little.............

I love my daughters!!! They bring me such joy!!!!!

Happy Birthday My Sweet Daizi

2010-07-27T00:06:00.003-04:00

Daizi...........born 2:50 am........7lbs 14oz...........21 inches long............easiest birth every :-)

My Ms Daizi & I just two years ago........Wow how times flies when you are having fun :-)!!

I am blessed being momma to three wonderful daughters. I know for now only two live with me here on earth, while the other still lives on in my heart. I remember Daizi's birth like it was yesterday. Every part of it from all we did the day before she was born & the day of her birth. We didn't want to know if we were having a boy or a girl. We did that with all three of our children. It was special not knowing. When Daizi was born and placed in my arms I remember the joy that her dad Billy and I shared looking at her. She was perfect in every way. Another special gift from God to us. Daizi right away had her way of doing things. Even though she was my third daughter, they all three were different and special in their own way. I will tell you that My Ms Daizi is just like me in every way. She has her daddy's dark brown eyes, but other then that she is a little me. Anyone that knows me real well has heard me say this, "Ms Jasmine is like my sister Lisa & Ms Daizi is just like me." I watch them and it reminds me of when my older sister & I was younger....

My dear sweet Ms Daizi Happy Birthday!! WOW my baby is in double numbers now. I love you more everyday. I never knew my heart could hold so much love until you were born. I love everything about you, your smile, outlook on life, how your so silly, friendly to everyone, love your alone time, yet has friends around all the time, a mommy's girl, a girly girl, talks and talks, those are just a few of the things I love about you. Your love for God & church is the best part of all!!! I pray daily that as you walk through life you will always lean on Jesus!!!! You are growing into a wonderful young lady. I have enjoyed every step of the way & look forward to everyday with you!!

Love Always,

Your Mommy OXOXOXOXOXOX

If everything comes your way, then your in the wrong lane

2010-07-26T08:13:00.004-04:00

God has been fighting battles in my life, because I am learning to be still and wait on Him. God has been answering prayers in my life, because I am doing just as He ask, and completely following His instructions. No I have not won the lottery, life is still a daily struggle against evil, I don't know how certain things will work out in life, but I am really do as the Bible instructs us to, Lay your burdens at the feet of Jesus & leave them there. I will be honest. There is still parts of the day I cry out to God about certain areas in my life. Yet when I am done, I leave them there. I must do this daily & often. My sister bought me this amazing book and I am learning so much about how Satan works through people & things in this world. yet we serve the One and True God who has already over come the world. I love God with all my heart and I want more of Him!!! I am still facing giants yet learning daily that there is joy in life when you turn all your burdens over to God. I start my day out with time alone with God, reading my devotional book & prayer. I will tell you on days that I don't do this my day is not as joyful, harder to fight off those words that Satan loves to fill my head with, my attitude toward life and not as patient as I should be. I am not at all perfect. I am only a sinner saved by the blood of Jesus!!!! He is the one who gives me strength, peace, joy and above all LOVE!!! I still have those talks with God during my day, because Satan fights all day. I want Holiness!! I want God to have every part of me. My pray is to lay out my life daily before God!!! Our God is awesome!!! I have been so encouraged this past week with all the prayers God has been answering in His time and His way. Church on Sunday was very uplifting! I walked away very encouraged!!!

2010-07-25T22:28:00.002-04:00

I have been thinking a lot about Holiness. Our Sunday School Class is study about Holiness. I love the book we are reading. I have grown up in church my whole life, I know I have said this before in my blog. My dad never pushed religion on us. He always told us that it wasn't going to get us to heaven. I grew up a Wesleyan (my dad being a preacher), went to a Baptist Christin School during Jr High, graduated High School from an Apostolic Christian School, my dad was raised a Nazarene, my mom raised Pilgrim Holiness & her dad my grandpa was a Pilgrim holiness preacher. I put all that in there to let you see that I have a lot of religious backgrounds in my life. I agree with my dad none of them will get my into heaven. The blood of Jesus is the only way into heaven!! My sins are covered by Jesus' blood. I am thankful for all the great Christians from all those back grounds in my life. They all taught me different things. We were asked..How would we explain Holiness to someone that wasn't a christian? I have really thought about this question & prayed. God I have trouble understanding this myself. After much prayer on this very question, it may sound simple & even some may not agree..this is how I can explain it with God's help.......
When you get saved....You have, joy, uplifting pure happiness and you want more of Jesus...It is just like when you first get a boyfriend or girlfriend....You are excited happy joy & want to know more about that person....After awhile that newest wears off, but if you love that person you work at it..When you become saved, Jesus is that perfect companion. He is always there, listening, talking to you through His Word, church, songs and other Christian things you involve yourself in. Yet if you don't do your part in getting to know Jesus you then fall out of love with him.....Just like in a relationship the more you love that person, they more you want to know them and even one day marriage is in your future....Holiness is the same way...The more you fall in love Jesus you desire more of Him. You want to grow closer and know all you can....After becoming saved then Holiness is just like the step of marriage you are giving everything over to God..Completely laying down your life, love Him, what to know everything there is to know about Him, and draw closer to Him...Just like in a marriage you have to do your part in loving that person, learning everything there is to know about them, working everyday to make your relationship work and you must do to the same with Jesus...You read His Word everyday, talk with him, lean on Him for everything, He is number one in our life and that is the way I understand Holiness...Some people date for years then marriage, where others date a short time, so age doesn't have anything to do with you giving your life completely over to God (Holiness) it has to do with your relationship with God. When you are ready and really want more of Him.
I have thought about this a lot. I have prayed and asked God, "If someone would ask me about Holiness then I would have a way to explain it to them,"

New Family Member!!!

2010-07-24T22:47:00.001-04:00

Welcome Home Cosmo!!!! He is a Shili-poo. A friend of mine posted on face book that she had to find him a new home. I didn't think about myself, of course i called my mom. I knew she had been looking for a dog. She suggested that I take him, because he would be great company for me and my daughters and they would be thrilled. I was excited. I have two huge labs outside & had been thinking about training them to bring inside, because I am a dog lover. My daughters love it when my parents watch my sister's little dog Lilly. We live beside my parents, so of course they go get her & bring her to our house. I am blessed an answer to a prayer that I had been praying, but was answered in a different & better way. God sees our desires & supplies them in His way. I love him already. Cosmo rode on my lap all the way home. He loved running outside, playing with his pull toy, laying on my lap, and follows me everywhere. I love it!!! He is the man of the house!!!! My friend Jen did a great job house breaking him, because he has gone to our door every time he needed out!! My heart goes out to her and her children, because I know that they have to be feeling the loss of him not there. I do promise he is already loved and will be soiled for sure. I sent pictures of him to my daughters phones, because they are with their dad today. They both said,"He is so cute." They can't wait to see him after church tomorrow. I better go, because Cosmo is needing out!!!

TGIF

2010-07-23T23:01:00.004-04:00

* Playing cards with my Ms Jasmine this week
* Listening to my Ms Daizi talk about her DS game
* Play dates & Sleepovers (the house was full of girl's this week) fun times
* Taking pictures of my daughters here on the farm
* Blessed with a wonderful dad that re-ran the satellite lines in my house today!!!
(all TVs are clear & they all work)
* Spending time talking to both my parents on the phone through my week
* God sees the bigger picture
* Answered prayers that I know that only through many talks with God doors were opened
* My daughters & I going to church camp next month (answer to prayer)
* The talks this week with my daughters (I love being a mom to daughters)
* Reconnecting with my cousin & her daughters
* Messages, phone calls from friends & prayers going up for us while we are going through this certain battle in life
* Knowing that I have some awesome friends & cousins
* Smiling because the Lord is fighting my battles for me, because I am learning to be still & let him
* The desire to learn more about God
* Talking to God & knowing He is really listening
* Watching God work out miracles in our lives

My Daughters!!!!

2010-07-22T20:07:00.010-04:00

I have their Birthday pictures taken every year after their birthday. Wow this year I was way behind. Now I did get them taken before their next birthdays!! YAY for me :-) I decided to take them outside in our yard to take pictures. We had a lot of fun going different places on the farm & even on our country road!!! Here are just a few to share with you my dear blogger friends!!! This is the first time I have ever taken them myself. I had fun editing then on my computer & putting all the extras on them.

Thinking Thursday

2010-07-22T08:13:00.005-04:00

* How did David feel standing before Goliath
* How did Daniel feel has he walked into the Den of Loins
* How did Jeremiah feel has he sent more of his army home
* How did Noah feel building the ark and still no rain for a while
* How did Job feel when he heard the news of losing his family
* How did God feel when Adam and Eve sinned in the Garden
* How did the disciples feel watching Jesus be carried away and then die on the cross
* How did Jesus' mother feel watching her son die on the cross

I know we all see the end result of these peoples lives. I know that they followed God's command & lived for Him. They went through valleys we don't have to face. Yet we have gaints in our lives, people who walk out of our lives because we follow Jesus, our armr is small at times, sometimes the blessing are just not pouring out in our lives, we have loss loves ones, we have had our children say things that have hurt us, we have felt Where are you God?, & some of us has suffered the loss of a child or children way to young.

I was thinking about how they felt knowing God was there for them, but didn't know the end of the story. I am trying to learn to be still & know that God is in control. Yes He wants us to pray, talk to Him daily, learn & read His word, even do our part in this world and yet lean on Him all the time!!!!